The path never found

I am imagining an endless number of things, all as a result of what I am going through at the moment. Many times I stop to think about how I would like to have the capacity of thinking or reasoning that I have now; perhaps that would have saved me a lot of time in several things. I also think infinitely about how I would have liked a different upbringing, and I am not talking about what they could have given me materially, but what they could have demanded from me at an academic level. Even so, I will never stop being thankful for what I consider myself to be, because I don't know.

I often wonder if I am the only one who has not yet found the path I long for. Ah, but the dilemma is that I still don't know what I want. This was not such a worrying issue before, I mean, there was the concern, but there was time. Time to keep exploring different paths and try to find that thing that could say, this is what I really want. Unfortunately, according to my life planning, time is running out. But I also don't want to push myself to look for something because I feel that later I might get confused. There are countless times when I feel like I lose myself and I start to look for a path that ends up with unfavorable results. Fortunately, along the way I manage to relate with quality people, people so incredible that they serve as a support for those strange moments.

Personally, I believe that it is not necessary to say that you have an internal fight; it is enough to meet with people who, even in the distance, are as present as if you had them by your side. It is enough to allow yourself to be infected with good energies, to be infected with laughter and good vibes. People who add to your life and do not subtract from it.I am going to confess that a couple of months ago, I felt so lost that I had even forgotten a little of my value. Yes, I forgot some of the things I consider myself to be really good at. Dark moments came over me because I felt again how the path was beginning to cloud over, and it probably stayed that way until at one point I ran into a person who reminded me of what I was capable of and the abilities I had.