[WE122] Homeless but never Hopeless - Homeless for the Weekend
Ohoo, weekend! I'm excited hehe. This is my entry for this weeks Weekend Engagement Concept initiated by sir @galenkp. Thank You so much for this topic. I really like the topic today. I like the third topic but I also like this one, so I'll go with this. You can also join in the fun just tap the Link above. Happy Weekend and Enjoy!!!
I get home still stress with what happened today in the office. We loss a deal to our rival company and now the office is in chaos. The plan and the talks that has been decided was all for nothing because we lost it. It is giving me a severe headache right now. I really want to go into all nighter again just to finish some reports but my eyes and mind can't do it anymore. And so I decided to just go home and rest for a bit.
Maybe because of tiredness too, then all those things that happened in the office, I just raised my voice to one of a homeless man who's asking for money. I got frustrated because how can they asked free money when some are working hard just to earn it. I feel like, I was in hell that time because of the sudden rage I felt in my heart. I know, the man is not at fault maybe he has own situation too, a battle he has to face.
But I can't help it, I already snap at the poor old man when I finally come into my senses. I was tired, helpless, frustrated and mad because of my situation that I wasn't able to stop my emotions, I failed to control it. I am ashamed on what I did. Although I said sorry, I am not sure though if he heard it. A lot of people witness what happened and I just run coz of embarrassment. How I wish I didn't let my emotions got the best of me.
I really feel sorry to what I did but I do hope that he is okay. I just have to go back to where I saw him and say how sorry I am for what I did. For now I just want to lie on my bed and rest. I really need to rest my mind so that I can erase this emotions that is slowly building again on my body. I hope I get better again tomorrow. I really need to calm down and gather my thoughts again. I need a clear mind for tomorrow. "Goodnight Self!"
I woke up with something poking in my face. I think they are trying to wake me up. Maybe Mother visit again to check on me. Ahh, I need to ready my ears again for a long sermon. I wasn't able to clean the house because I didn't really go home because of work. Even if I want to, I can't just like today. Just have to wake up and prep and go to work again. I have lot of things to finish so I hope mother will be considerate this time.
I'm still afraid to Mom so I plan to just sneak and go to work. I open my left eyes just to check but instead of my room, I was greeted by unfamiliar face in unfamiliar footbridge. I open both of my eyes just make sure that if I am dreaming or what. But no, I can hear a cars honking like crazy. It's traffic so early in the morning. But I'm still in daze because of what's happening right now. I feel like an alien that was awaken in unfamiliar world.
And the person who probably poking me a while ago is looking at me like I am some sort of weird specimen.
"Lady! You're on the way. Please find yourself a spot where you can't disturb anyone."
"You are so rude."
That's the only word I uttered because I can't still comprehend the situation I am in right now. What I remember is I sleep late last Friday and when I woke I am here in the busy road. And oh, I also have a dirty clothes and the smell, oh God I want to puke!
"Wait! I know I was in my room so how did it happen that I am not in my place now. I'm not even familiar with it. And what's with my clothes! Where did I go that I have a lot of dirt in my clothes. I was just sleeping!"
I want to really cry because I am puzzled to what's the situation right now. Even if I want to ask anyone, I can't do thay because they are avoiding me, like I have a disease that kills anyone who will touch me. I feel helpless with my situation.
With helplessness and pity for myself, I can't help but to cry. My eyes just started to tear up and now it is like a faucet. And then I heard my stomach growl like it didn't get fed for weeks. "Well,yeah, I didn't eat last night."
As much as I want to cry more because of my situation, I can't afford to do that without taking an action. I know I can do something with this. For starter, I have to find first of where I'm currently at. I waited for a kind looking woman who will take time to look at me. It took me 16 minutes or so before I can get someone's attention.
"Hi! I'm Sorry if I am disturbing you right now. I just want to ask if you can tell me where is this place. I just need to know please."
"Oh, are you lost or what? There, look at that sign. There are people like you here who said they are lost or bla bla bla but they really just want to take advantage of those people who just wanted to help. Now, read that and please, just find someone who will go with your charade. Ciao.!"
"Is this the kind of discrimination that they always have to face everyday?"
Because of it I feel more guilty coz of what I did to the old man. I want to go back there and say how sorry I am but, how?
"For now, I have to feed myself so I can think clearly. And to do this....." I look around my surroundings and when I saw those things, I decided to act fast and get those.
Plastic Bottles, used box and things I can sell to a junk shop. I also collected a lot of things that I think will be accepted in the Junk Shop. And when I finally thought that I can already sell it - I look for a Junk Shop in the area that I am sure exist here. I look and look and look and it took me an hour before I finally see one. I didn't mind my rumbling stomach and just get inside to the shop.
When the old man check the items I had I sigh in relief because I know they accept that kind of thing in here. And after a minutes of checking ang counting it I finally receive $0.34. I am just glad that I get some from it. Just water and little bread is already enough for me. While eating the bread I bought using that money, I can't help but to think of the turn of event that happen to me. I feel like this is punishment.
But, from what happened today to me, I learned to give importance to the things that I neglect because I didn't see value on it. I realized that eating on time is important. I also realize that life is never easy to anyone. If me who's still fortunate to what I had is still having a hard time because of hardship, what more those people who's less privilege just because they were born poor.
That no matter how hard they tried to get out on poverty, it is as if they were glued in that situation that they can't get out of it no matter what they do. But they are still hanging there because they want to live, they are still happy living in this cruel world. Because whatever the situation is, they can still find a reason to smile. "Ah ahh! I hope the old man is okay and someone is giving him foods."
My day continue the next day. And just like what I did yesterday, I collected a lot of bottle that I can collect and put it in a sack. Even if I experience a severe body pain for what I did, yesterday I still grind hard so that I can put foods on my stomach. And then unbelievably, I woke up the next day only to be surprise because I am finally on my bed.
Dreams or whatever, I am happy and glad that I experience what I experience that two days. I happily prepare myself to go work and with a big smile on my lips. And on my way I saw him, he is looking at me as if he knows something. I just move closer to where he is sitting and bow my head and said SORRY.
People are looking at me with a big questiin on their mind, maybe because I am smiling widely. Like maybe they are thinking I am crazy, lol. But who cares. I am too happy to even give time of what they are thinking about me.
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The human being in difficult situations always manages to get ahead.... I liked your story.
Yayyy, thank you. Yeah, we shouldn't loss hope coz surely everything will be okay in the end.
there is always a light that accompanies us to get ahead...
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I love these two prompts this week because I did some experiments like those. Just like what you described there, we find ways to survive whatever that is which is amazing. We are too complacent these days and I think by exercising our survival skills, that goes a long way. Today, I am sitting typing all of these and reminiscing those days, I was like, " WTF did I do?" how was I so brave" because again, being female on the street alone, sleeping at random strange places was actually pretty dangerous but for my old self, trying to be homeless was some sort of experiment. Although at those times, I still have gadgets where I use it to make money but it wasn't enough to get me rooms. Also, if it were just like the weekend, saturday-sunday,I kinda did that. I like to go on random cities with train just to walk until the morning then goes back during the night. Live after covid just makes things harder and I hate that because I can't do fun stuff like that anymore as stores and transportation stopped operating 24/7.
Yayy, sir Galen is really good in thinking of what topic to make for us where we can really think hard hehehe.
When the instinct kick in, even if it's hard and even if we think it is hopeless, we will still try to survive it. We are strong, sometimes it was just covered coz of fears too and too much overthinking.
Ikr, you are a female, alone on the street, and there afe people out there too who will take advantage of you coz they thought you are an easy target, aigooo.
But that is a fun experiment ha. Now that everything is slowly going back to normal, will you try it again doing that?
Galing ng prologue and the body of the story Ruffa! I love how you build it up na nahook ako sa nangyari sa MC mo. True enough when we are put into such situations, di ko rin alam kung ano ang gagwin ko. Am I going to do the bakal, bote or I will be begging in the streets for money to eat. Probably the first one still pero ang galing!
Hihi, oi sankyuuuu UwU. Nakatuwa naman huehue coming from TP the beast! Hihi.
What if lang biglang ma summon tayo sa other world tas ang character natin ay homeless na walang kahit ano no. Magagalit kaba, gigive up, or try munang makaahon and survive it.
Naging mangangalakal ako nung chilhood ko Ruff, and the fuel for that is I need to strive to survive. This is all true!
Gawain namin yan Muuunsy, mangalakal sa basurahan kaso nag hahanap lang kami ng mga pedng pakinabangsn at pwdng pag laruan, lol.
Hahaha katuwa naman kayo Roffa
Nice one madam.. Whatever happens, let's just think that we are more fortunate than those poor ones in the streets.. And in any situation, we are resilient enough to find ways to survive... !CTP
Minsan mararanasan talaga natin sa buhay yung mga panahon na mahihirapan tayo and to the point that we need to do something unsusual for us to survive. But then again, nothing is temporary ate, we just need to be troong, i know you are one of the most resilient people I know. Kaya laban lang tayo sa life.
naalala ko tuloy ung kabataan ko tapos nagja junk shop rin kami ng mga kapatid at pinsan ko pandagdag baon. Kaa ako mas natutuwa ako dun sa mga bata na gawain din to, now alam nila gaano kahirap ang buhay.
Love this story of survival. It shows our innate capability to adapt.
Homeless but not hopeless..