A long overdue apology to myself
One thing about me, I don’t like to delay apologies. If I feel I’ve done something wrong to someone, I quickly apologize to prevent the situation from getting worse. I even apologize when I’m not wrong just to make things better but in all these, there’s one person I keep offending and I seem to brush it off like it’s nothing.
Today, I would like to apologize to myself. How do I even begin? Where do I start from?
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This is to you Mariam. First of all, let me take some time to appreciate all that you do. For being there every single day. For waking up and facing the world even when you don’t feel like it, even when everything seems to be against you and you feel no one is there for you.
I would like to apologize to you also because this is long over due. Even though you are there for me every single day, I always prioritize you the least. Everyone else comes before you.
I’m sorry for not paying attention to your needs, for silencing you when you try to speak up about something you are uncomfortable with. I’m sorry for making you feel your happiness and comfort isn’t top priority. For making you feel taking time for yourself and doing things just for you is selfish.
I’m sorry for going against you every single day. Every single moral and principle you have, I seem to have cancelled all out. I’ve really crossed the line and I made you feel crossing the line was the only logical thing to do. I still remember the time you would whisper “this isn’t right. This isn’t something you want to do. This goes against everything you believe in” but I still go ahead to do it. This has gone on so long that it’s now like “whatever “. You don’t even know yourself anymore. Everyone thinks you are happy and living your best life but I know you are not.
I want to say sorry for all the times you didn’t speak up for fear of not fitting in or being laughed at. For how long will this go on?
But there’s something I always say, your words mean nothing if your actions speak otherwise. So I know saying sorry to you doesn’t hold much weight if I don’t do better.
This letter is a promise I’m making to you, someday not far from now, you will be all that you’ve wanted to be, you wouldn’t have to worry about not fitting in anymore cause you would find so much joy in standing out.
From here on, I promise to put you first regardless of whatever comes along. If it doesn’t feel right to you, then I wouldn’t do it. This is a first step and the biggest step baby!
I’m writing this letter to apologize and also to promise to do better daily. Don’t be too hard on yourself. You are already doing so well.
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This is a brilliant letter that everyone should write to themselves! 😊
Yes
I took me a while to realize all these things and come to terms with it
To truly become a better person, one must come to terms with oneself. This would be acknowledging the manners in which we are kind to ourselves and also the ways we aren't gentle with ourselves.
Self-awareness, basically, is the key to getting closer to the perfection of oneself that we seek.
If we can embrace who we really are and then set our wellbeing as a top priority, we will get closer to becoming who we want to be deep within us—a better person.
This is a beautiful piece on self-reflection.
Coming to terms with these things is so difficult. You can avoid it all you want, but you will eventually get there cause you will continue to feel a void in you if you don’t please yourself
I kept crying while reading this letter for yourself. There are times that I put others before myself. Sometimes I won't be blessed. For the advice, I think it is better to make this a new year's resolution, always prioritize yourself. Be happy always, sis!💖💖
Some times you don’t even realize you are doing it till you are in it. It’s going to take a lot of “no”s and strong will to get through
Very nice your letter, we spend our life making others feel and we forget about ourselves excellent post blessings 💞.
Hopefully we can all learn to do better and be happier