Goodbyes: A freewrite
Though it hurts to say this word, I have to for my own mental sanity. The red flags kept coming on and off and I kept pushing it off because I thought you were gonna change only for you to become worse.
You used to light up my day but all the sudden you changed. You became the monster in my nightmares in broad daylight.
I was never ready to say goodbye but my emotions have overflowed and my cup is now empty. Everything has changed, I no longer feel the butterflies in my stomach when you're standing close to me, instead I'm alert with my fist tied at the slightest inch you take.
It's now that bad and I wish I could look back but too bad, I'm ready for the goodbye. We weren't meant to be so it's okay to move on.
Someday somehow you may find a match though it may be hard reason being; every being is alert and ready to say goodbye with the slightest wave of a red flag.
Now that feels bad, it's okay to be sad but what wasn't meant to be can never ever be. It's unhealthy to force things, I remember when a strong wind blew, we were out in the woods just the two of us listening to and connecting with the trees.
The wind came almost taking me off your arms, just today I remember what that meant, I wasn't supposed to be there and now I realize that my goodbye is only a path to my dream dance.