I Hope Things Really Do Get Better Next Year
I've had a great start early this year in Hive. I was finally becoming much more active and involved with my posts and the community itself. But things have taken a slow downturn till now. There's also the matter of my health problems (chronic IBS) that keeps putting me in an enfeebled position in life. Migraines, stomach problems, debilitating health, and so on. I can't hold much of an actual job, so I rely on my family's help to get by. But I haven't been able to spend much on the hobby I grew up with, either.
I don't need to tell you about an upcoming recession, so I'll just spell it out; I hope things do get better if our overall situation improves. Not only that, but I've been playing games for a long time, and it took me a long time to get to a place where I had almost everything I want. I sold my PS4 and XB1 last year, this year I sold a bunch of custom keyboards, and a studio headphone I had for upgrading my PC. I had plans to replace them, though it seems I lost more than stuff than I've gained recently.
Furthermore, I haven't been able to purchase certain games, and just being kept out of the loop for one of the crappiest years of my life has put a damper in my overall well-being. Even with all the time I have in my hands, I can't seem to enjoy playing like I used to.
During my time here, Hive let me realize how closely knit this community is. I've been a member of Steemit before the Hive fork happened. And around my time in the former, my first proper game review was for God of War 2018. I secured an early copy, and I was excited to tell people just how amazing the game is. I finished it in 3-4 days short. Non-stop playing. Though, I lacked brains for some reason, and didn't fully take advantage of the delegation and voting pool that I had. Lesson learned.
Circa 2022, November just when the sequel finally released. I didn't have a system to play it on. I was hoping things would improve financially some time ago, then came the horror stories about people making warnings about making big purchases and saving up. Because there's a big recession that's coming. 2 years of lockdown, 1 year of economic struggles....and now this.
And I mean, there were a lot of games that came out this year, and I missed out on my chances of getting them. Especially for the Switch, which I thankfully didn't give away yet. Kirby and the Forgotten Land, Bayonetta 3, Xenoblade Chronicles 3, and lots more.
That is a lot of games, and compared to how many I could get my hands on before C-19, I never managed to play any of these. I still only have a digital copy of XC definitive and the first Mario-Rabbids game. I sold my SMTV physical a long time back. Some of my friends advised me on emulating, though not the same feeling as playing it on my Switch, and they're not stable either.
Now, why am I sharing these sob stories? Well, because I am getting old. I had big plans, I thought I could very much come close to them without dealing with my current life struggles. I've been wanting to buy a 4K TV or monitor for a few years, and when the PS5 finally came out, I worked hard to save for both.
Already had two part-time jobs over a month ago, and I quit from one of them because of the poor work conditions and less pay. Wasn't good for my health. The other one had ceased operations, because of servers, as I was told. But other things hint that they had no longer financial backing in order to work.
I flunk university, because the diploma I was studying for, was supervised by faculty malpractice. They didn't tell me what I was supposed to do, and swapped bachelors curriculum with ours. So now, thanks to that, I kind of embellish details about my university. But even leaving afterwards, I stopped continuing with my studies while focusing on my health and well-being.
A few friends of mine asked me to join the data analysis field, though in order to do so, I had to study both programming and practice in the analytics field. Not as easy as it sounds, but I had a lot of experienced people around me telling me so, they've already graduated with multiple degrees, so they've been lending me a hand since.
I hope to land a good job in the foreseeable future, then have the autonomy I need to focus on what I like, while fixing all the issues I have of myself. 2023 is the year I could have something worthwhile to give, and probably make people shut up about telling me to get a real job.
I know probably somewhere in this profession I won't have time to play, but it's better to put my time into something productive, before getting to the luxuries of my life. In fact, some ways would help me enjoy things better since I now have something to contribute to. Would have, actually. But then again, I won't have much time and if this economy situation continues, it would be really rough for me.
And man, I hope Hive comes back big time. I made some friends here, people that still follow my posts and comment. You guys are kind of heroes to me. And it helped me better understand how to communicate with the rest. But, there were brighter days of Hive, that even HGC News in their Discord server was active. Last one was I guess half a year ago.
I never did get around to explaining why I had to sell my PS4 and XB1, so the best way to put it is a few reasons: living expenses, my flatmate lying to me about utility costs while exploiting me, and how my family started cutting down my financial support. I still deal with health issues, and no one in this country (Bangladesh) could properly identify and threat that. Best option is taking treatment abroad, that will take time, which I don't feel like I have much left for if my sanity dying is any indication.
Next year, fingers crossed. That's where the big changes come, and this community really thrives. Next year is where I get to finally change things for myself and stop dwelling in my own failings. Thank you guys for being around and following me all this time. I hope to write more, while Hive finds its own feet once more.
I'm sorry about your downtime.
I also hope the new year will bring more lights into your life and may you get well.
Let's all hope our downtime goes away. Might be awhile before it actually does.
Yeah let's hope for the better.
We hope for the best wishing you divine healing in Jesus Mighty Name Amen 🙏
Keep being safe 💞
Once there is Live there is great hope for great success accomplishment 💗
Thanks man, any kind of prayer is actually appreciated.
I am sure that everything will improve dude, both for the community and for you personally. I hope you manage to find that job that will allow you, among many other things, to give the luxuries you mention and that little by little you will improve your health and well-being ✊.
I'm wishing you the best man! The situation you maybe in right now might be crappy,but chances are it will only get better! The world right now is in a pretty crappy spot and hopefully it bounces back soon.
Stay strong, dude!
Thanks for the overwhelming support, you guys. I can't thank you enough. I'll keep writing to stay alive in some way in the platform 😄