LOH CONTEST #91 - The song that stirs my feeling and my soul every time.

"Day to day, it won't leave
Everytime, I try to speak.
It consumes my mind
It consumes my soul
It wants my life it wants complete control.
…"

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On a gloomy day, while I am ready to join LOH contest #91, I decide to write some words about this song and take advantage to present all of you just in case someone will also love it.

Name a song, any song, happy or sad, that stirs your heart and soul everytime you hear it. What memories, feelings, emotions, and images does the song bring back? Is there a story that goes with the song?

The melody of this song is always droned out of my mind per day. I unknowingly got via reference playlist of Youtube in my bed after listening to my previous a favourite song. The song with the name “in my head” which was presented by Bedroom (Noah Kittinger).

What is so special on this song?

It is quite hard to find out words to explain the strong feeling that I got whenever I listen to this song. However, the most things attracts me at the first sight is about the overture. It brings to me the feeling of wandering on the road, heading to a strange area in which there is only me and strangers.

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It is exactly the feeling of letting go of all sad things without regreting or confusing about the choice or whatever attachs me. I have done with this experience few years ago. I have tried to run away my current terrify life by going to Myanmar, releasing all of my lovely things, my family, my career… just because for one reason, that is “I want to live my true life”. The combination of guitar and some instrument tools recalls me to my lonely journey on the train heading to Mandalay city from Yangon.

My Picture - my legs on my journey

My picture on the Yangon, Myanmar.

By sitting by the window, with a faraway look in my eyes to the outside landscape, I remembered about my life since I was a little kid to the adulthood, I craved for finding myself, I did not want to live like this with the empty soul, with my meaningless life. Therefore, I just go and go, and think nonstop about my life, my life, my freedom…!

And for sure, when the music turns on, the images of all my wild journey reappear in the very sharp way and vivid colors.

"Somebody help me before it's bad
Somebody help me before I end up dead.
I feel alone, all of the time
It's still quite, lurking inside
I'm a walking contradiction
Everything I say is an affliction to him…"

It touched my deeply soul and heart in each every word of lyrics. I have thought about doing some stupid things or eventually making a suicide. In the past, I asked myself a lot of things, I needed someone to help me getting out of this feeling, the feeling of wanting dead, the feeling of being alone and making friend with depression all time, however, I could not speak it out even once. So, I just exist and face to the world with an empty soul.

My picture.

I do feel a very deep sympathy the emotion of the author, even though I have no idea if this is real feeling of him or he just tried to create a new tune for his works. It still touched my heart a lot and a lot. I feel the pression, the lonliness, the regretting, and the strong want of getting rid of that feeling.
Sometime in our life, we need to spend time to be alone, to live with our truly emotions even that is so terrible, sad or dramatic if we feel that we cannot stand, we are truly tired or depressed. By doing some journey, escaping from reality, staying alone in our room, isolated ourselves and whatever it takes, the soul of us will begin to live again, to be fulfilled.

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In the end, though the melody of song is quite gloomy but it also makes me feel the warmth and comforts at the same time. Quite weird, right! But it is exactly what I feel via this song, my current favourite song!
What about you @jmis101? May I know the song that stirs your heart whenever you listen to it?

Thank you for stopping by my entry! Have a great day, Ladies!