My Coffee, the last cup

Too many hours spent listening to that podcast of superstitions and mind games, I am obsessed and afraid of public speaking and being vulnerable to my words.

I miss that chapter of my life, where I was free to flow without fear of reactions.

That woman with the voice of a meditation guru gave me an order: Look at yourself in the mirror and repeat: "What comes out of my mouth builds and does not destroy", "My words are better than my silence".

Yes, that's very good, now my sins are mostly of thought, omission and few deeds, in that order.

Do you know how hard it is for me?, I'm the guy who won the last comedy monologue festival, the prince of sarcasm of the communication faculty at the university. I had it all to be the promised TV star who would bring Jimmy Fallon to his knees begging not to lose his audience.

In today's episode they talk about putting that shoe on; "The last coffee of my life and who to share it with".

I see two scenarios, either all the coffee in the world runs out, or I will die soon.

I hate talking about death, I know it will happen, but I'm not prepared.

Now I remember that story where Edward Bloom saw in the old lady's eye all the details of his last day, every time he was in danger he would say: Stop! This is not how I will die!, A small advantage, isn't it?, Look at the glass half full.

Ok, I take a deep breath, as it will be the last time, well, I will be demanding, not for less honey, I want something like the red carpet of the academy awards, today I will parade without shame and with all the glory, I go in black tie, I am the protagonist of the movie that is on the cusp of all the pools.

Usually, my coffee is classic, cookies, sweet rolls, waffles with arequipe.

I will go a step further, I want a luxurious tasting of novelties, the secret recipes, the most exotic presentations of my favorite drink, the surprising, I want the taste of the Caribbean, still, I am open to try more than my infinite mind can expect.

The company, heeding my fanatic heart, I could choose an intense conversation with my favorite artist, I understand that she is going through a delicate moment of love disappointment, and I in love am an expert in repeating mistakes, so, with her, well, it wouldn't work.

I choose to be with someone I don't know, but certain conditions apply, I want her to know about these enigmatic subjects, that I always look at from afar with skepticism, the law of attraction, tarot, mercury retrograde, the light at the end of the tunnel, evolution and creation, let's see, let's see...

I changed my mind a little, I want to talk to a mentalist, scientist, expert in taking the brain to another level of productivity, I saw a few days ago a movie where Scarlett Johansson is a laboratory mouse and what the brain can achieve is impressive, the girl managed to bend gravity, so before my last coffee I want to know more about this thesis, how much fantasy and how much reality?

I really hope this is not my last cup of coffee, or that, in the hereafter, there will be more of this pleasure.