My 35th Not So Ordinary Birthday 🎂

Hello everyone a new week was given to us by our dear Lord we should thank every minute of our lives. And celebrating a year older is a existence. What memories you have when you're celebrating your birthday? Mine was when I was kid, mom used to treat me in a place where I love to go. But I'm not fan of rides I have a phobia in caterpillar rides, roller coaster and even carosell. The reason I don't know, but I tried to ride a caterpillar and beg the man to stop it because I wanted to go down. But he didn't listen 😭 the most was the swing the sound is making me panic I couldn't calm my self and heart. My nephew even pity me he saw me shaking, panicking so he stopped the swing so I can control my self.

Why I'm a telling this? Valentine's day 💘 my daughter went out with her friends. It's already late, her cat Addiel was sad maybe because she's trouble because Yana wasn't around the house. She was so cute I carried her to my arms and called my daughter. Yana your baby Addiel seems to be looking for you, you need to go home, Ria took the cat from me and it accidentally scratch my hands 😔. I panicked but relax at the same time, but I felt a heaviness. My daughter was home I told her what happened, she told me that she'll be killed by her dad. It told us to send the cat away but we didn't listen. My personal reason was Ria, the doctor told that it need to observed and took good care off.

I was thinking if I needed to get a vaccine because after what happened to Ria. I felt a trauma, the expenses were also physically, mentally and emotionally tired. But my son told me mom it's you're birthday tomorrow I think you need to see a doctor to make sure. I hid it from my husband. 2/15/24 three AM I was already awake and can't go back to sleep. The sun will almost cover the sorroundings, and you know what make me covince to go to the animal bite center. I've searched online and even small scratch is very important to have an anti Rabies. Government Hospital are also made to serve patients too.

We arrive 5:40 AM, it was a different hospital and nearer to our location. I was the third patient, the first arrive at 4:20 her wound is big. She was worried because a person died to their place because it didn't believe into rabies. We all felt stress I also told her my situation that my daughter was also scratch by a cat and we've just gone to expenses.

They told us that the vaccination will start at 9-9:30 I was shocked because we haven't eat at all. My son and I just drink coffee and little bread, I also brought some bread because we don't have any money to buy food outside. Because of the long waiting I got to meet new friends. We were all given skin test that took 30 minutes to see the results. The vaccine cost 1450 pesos $25.87 but the nurse told us to please at the drug store and told that we don't have money. I was pale while filling up the form, they told us that it was free. I even had many mistake 😞 I promise that I'll pay the bill 3/15/22. And I got my medicine for free.

But...

While waiting for my turn I felt nervous, dizzy 😵 and my anxiety triggers me. My husband also called and got mad! He also went home because of anger, I was lost and don't know what to do. He told us that if we just listen to him none of this would happen. My daughter was also crying because her dad was really mad at her. I was having my shot 💉 but I told the nurse that made the last because im not feeling well but she told that I've waited too much. After she gave the vaccine I was dizzy 😵 it was a total of four shots 2 shot's in left and right. They are talking to me but I felt different, the nurse gave me candy but my vision got blurred and the next thing I knew I saw a light 🕯️....

It's like I was dead and suddenly come back to life. They were all worried they brought to the emergency room to check my vital signs. It said that it was clear, sugar, heart, oxygen. But I was not feeling well pale and weak so they gave an oxygen so I can breathe easier. I vomited loudly my stomach is really aching. My friends went to check on me they are also giving my son money but he didn't get it. They said that I need to pull myself together the last thing I know I was about to cry 😢 because I saw my son so worried about me.

After 1-2 hours I decided to go home because they are a lot of patient and I can't rest because it was noisy. I was still weak but I know I need to overcome this trial for I'm not afraid to die after all. Im just afraid to left my loved ones. So while I'm still breathing I need to fight. The doctor findings was stress and traumatic disorder, they didn't do any blood, urine or ecg test but the initial check up told that I'll be fine I just need to take a lot of rest. Besides its already lunch and we haven't eat breakfast 😞

This my most unforgettable birthday after all, but God pity me and I'm still blessed by his grace. So I'll never asked why it's so hard, because no trial and tests that are given to us that we can't handle.

Thank you so much for reading
Much love, @usagigallardo015