Well, I Am Running Mad
It might seem like I'm exaggerating but this is how best I can put it. What's the best way to say that on most days, I want to scream out loud? There's too much going on and I'm mostly mentally and physically stressed. It's always one thing or the other and one can't catch a break. Half a year later, living in a new country keeps getting intense. The itty bitty moments of genuine happiness I get are those reminiscing a simpler life back home with my annoying little puppies or being the brunt of my parents' jokes. Life's not any easier back home currently and thinking of family struggling in the crippling economy makes me even sicker.
I haven't been here on hive in forever and I don't want to give a run down of how depressed I've been as a welcome note. My coping mechanism so far has been accepting that I'm indeed mad but I'm soldiering through it. It's infact a very normal phase for many immigrants to have it tough in the beginning, it eventually gets better they say. Well, I hope it does get better soon and when it does, it should be worth all the stress.
I did miss being on hive though. I occasionally read stuff here to distract myself from life's issues but there's not enough mental energy to write or even be passively active. My friend asked me about writing on hive some days ago and I thought to give it a try today. I guess I stopped writing mainly because I don't want to whine everyday about my struggles because that's all I could come up with. As much as I've been absent on here, I've been absent in real life too, not doing the things I like, maintaining relationships or exploring new activities. Sadly, I can't stretch myself well enough in this phase and I'm only trying to keep afloat.
My goal right now is to be done with school as that is my biggest commitment at the moment. It would be a huge relief and afford me time to worry about other things. I would also like to go on a vacation afterwards to cool off because I sure deserve it. In the midst of it all, I'm grateful because life could actually be worse but we're soldiering through one day at a time. I'm running mad but I'm not dead yet. Anyway, how have you been?
Do you exercise daily?
No, I don't
Well then.
Start.
It will make you feel better overall. Great stress reliever. Make you more clear headed. It will help get rid of negative thoughts. Just power through it. I know you can do it.
Cheers mate :)
Cheers!
It’s a lot for sure but we have to find ways to make adjustments in our lives. The world isn’t going to get easier unfortunately so it’s important that we find ways to help ourselves cope and adapt to these things.
You know you can post here with whatever you want!
True that. Thank you!
You're on a student visa as far as I know, so legally that's different than an immigrant.
It is
Please tell us more Erikah. Tell us what exactly you mean by this statement?
Legally it's a different status with different rights.
So what does this have to do with the sacrifices and emotions she's feeling from living in a different country?
Who said anything about that?
She did. That's what the entire publication is about.
I quoted the part I was referring to. Scroll up.
So, pointing out that we have temporary status in the country proves what exactly?
First of all I was not talking about you, but about her student status. You can't compare a student's life to an immigrant's life as they have different rights, different obligations and different opportunities.
She's my wife. You talk to her, you talk to me. I know exactly what she's living through and I know exactly how she feels about your comment. If you cannot see how insensitive your comment is to the situation, that's on you.
Talking to you and talking about you are two different things. I attached a screenshot of what I said.
What I said are facts.
Oh thank you Erika. Thank you very much for telling her about her immigration status and how different it is from an immigrant's life. This useless piece of information you've given her was definitely what she wanted to hear when she came on Hive to talk about her personal challenges.
Bravo. Well done. Give your self around of applause
Totally untrue, on the contrary. I said she's not an immigrant, she's a student.
You're either being intentionally obtuse or simply lack the emotional maturity to deduce your error. I've tried my best and said my peace, not much else I can do.
None of the above. It wasn't my error. You came here to pick a fight with me and twisted everything I said.
I didn't twist anything you. I'm telling you that what you said is complete bullshit and irrelevant to the conversation.
Nobody asked you to tell us "facts". Do you think you have more fact than the actual person sharing their experiences?
If you don't have anything useful to say, shut your mouth and mind your business.
Comnenting is free on the platform for everyone and you're twisting my words again.
Thanks again, more facts right?
Birds have wings.
You don't usually interact with my content but me referring to myself as an immigrant in a new country bugged you so much that you had to 'correct' and remind me that I'm on a student visa. Fucking joke 😂
How you both acted today is a bad joke. I just can't use your words as civilized people don't talk like that.
Now you want to talk about being civilised? You didn't think of that before you centered the most minute detail in my post and being intentionally obtuse, dismissive of my experience as a person living in a new country? You are offended?! Please, don't go there with the civilised talk
No. Just telling you civilized people don't use that language.
Anyway, again, enjoy your day.
Ofcourse you're very knowledgeable about civilisation 🙃
Lol if you think a lack of empathy and your robotic need to highlight a "fact" in an emotional publication about someone's experience is somehow civilized, good for you.
I'll also tell you that you lack emotional intelligence.
Keep your cold and lifeless "enjoy your day" to yourself, thank you.
Enjoy your day.
This is such a weird thing to point out from my post. I didn't want to indulge you at first because it made no sense that you'd highlight my immigration status for no damn reason. Your further comments prove you indeed had nothing relevant to say.
Yeah, ignoring facts is a way of dealing with things as well.
What an ass
Shows who you really are.
No, you showed who you really are
Enjoy your day.
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