When Does It All End?
I'm just wondering when this continuous hustle would end. At each point of my life, I always feel like I'm just starting life even when I've been through several stages that brought me to this very moment. That feeling of just starting is redundant and I'm kind of tired of it. How do I know that I've truly moved on to the transition phase that would lead me to the big break?
It's like the common question, 'when did you realize you were an adult?' When did life really hit you in the face and you're like, 'oh shit, this is my shit and I have to deal with my shit'. For some people, they can pinpoint that exact time, some others think they're still not adults yet, and there are those who think they're in a transition phase.
For me, I became an adult the moment I made the longest journey away from my parents' home. I didn't know it then but at that moment I became fully responsible for myself and had to make adult decisions. At a point, I was almost homeless and I wished I was a trust fund baby that had their future laid out for them.
I think the adult bell rings in times when you realize you have to pull yourself out of situations because you're really just alone and responsible for yourself. I consider that point a starting phase and I've had several other starting phases because I always feel like I'm just starting.
My mind is never settled or relaxed and I keep thinking about where I'm going from here. I want to at least feel like I'm in a transition phase already. Maybe my many starting phases can be classed as a transition if I really want to look at the progression and how it all connects.
I asked when it all ends like I'm talking about the relaxed, retirement phase but I really just want to know when my many beginnings end. Sigh. I'm so tired, not tired of life tired, just tired from being sick but glad I'm recovering. I ended the injection doses for malaria today and my butt cheeks hurt. Lol.
Sorry, not sorry for my ramblings. Half the time I was dozing off, I hope I was able to communicate my thoughts still.
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After 50 years I still start over regularly. My next start is less than 30 days away.
It’s difficult for sure but the challenges in life are critical, as stressful as they are and can be. If we had no challenges in life then we wouldn’t be able to think critically about things. Trust fund kids have it well in some ways but are considerably disadvantaged in others. Not saying that having money is bad but they will never know what it’s like to be careful with money, to work hard and do things that are important for a functioning adult. There are some exceptions of course but not many.