I probably shouldn't share this but I guess I have to or need to for the sake of the point I wanna drive at.
So while in school today, I felt sad about not being able to make it to my last class for today.
Initially, I never planned to go to school today, I felt reluctant as to if the lectures we have today would hold.
Rushing in at di minutes to attend the class, I missed a bus that would have taken me to my campus.
I couldn't further my journey and since the other school bus took really long to load, I was late for the class and way behind time so I sadly left without going for my lectures.

Just before then, I had a few minutes to think of where else to go, I thought of visiting a friend but she wasn't picking up her phone and so I decided why not attend a midweek service in my church that is closer to school where I was.
After I made up my mind on where to go later on, I walked down to the school gate to pick a public transport to the location only for me to hear the loud noise of musical instruments playing from a distance.
I knew just which assembly that was coming from and in a flash, my mind drifted to the fact that I had once promised myself to worship in that particular assembly to know how things work over there and how they conduct their own services.
Since I haven't really been to other assemblies or denominations aside from mine, I thought it was a good chance to attend a different assembly.

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So that was how I reversed my mission from going to my own church to attending another assembly whose name I wouldn't mention.
At first, I was shy to walk inside since whatever program they had had already started, so I waited for a member to walk in while I follow behind.
Luckily for me, a young guy walked in and I asked him if I could use the front or back door to go inside, he told me the back door of course. So I followed him to the back door and went inside.
And so unlike me, my spirit wasn't just feeling the place, I couldn't connect to the atmosphere, and it felt as if what I heard from outside that drew me in wasn't what I later witnessed when I finally got inside.
I was somewhat disappointed but I insisted to stay for some hours if I would be able to let loose and connect to whatever was happening there but the case was still the same.
I wasn't losing hope so I later ignored how I felt and tried my best to flow along with what was happening

A few more minutes an Artiste was called to worship or lead in a worship session, he had a great voice and started pretty well but along the line was singing horribly that even the congregation started whispering among themselves and some other people laughing and wondering what was happening, for someone who has a great singing voice to be singing off and sharping/flatting the songs, changing keys too.
I couldn't stand it either but God so help him that he rounded up and left the podium for another session which was the sermon time.

Immediately after the worship session, people started to pick up their bags and head out.
I was still baffled at what was happening but remained calm regardless.
Prayer points were raised, and so we started praying.
Still, I wasn't connected with the atmosphere, but I kept praying and then suddenly I heard the person that anchored the prayer session saying the angel of the Lord spoke to him and so he called out for anyone with a familiar name but none responded, he repeated the same thing for three times with different names saying he's been told something about those individuals with those names who are inside the auditorium but unfortunately for him, none inside bear the three different names he called.
When it felt like he was almost disappointed and would look like a fake, he called a lady at the back seated just in front of me, and started asking about her mom and what he saw concerning her mom.
The poor girl looked confused and lost, perhaps what he was saying had nothing to do with her mom.
He told the girl to talk to him but the girl didn't know or have anything to say to him.
He felt disappointed and went ahead to stop his show and started reading the scriptures and leading in prayers.

I was so disappointed myself that I couldn't help but wondered if he was a fake or something.
And honestly, I can't say for sure, it's only left for him and his God to decide if what he was actually doing was genuine or if he was only faking the show.
I am in no place to criticize or judge since I know nothing about him or what he is capable of or his gifting.
I just hoped that whatever had happened there wasn't a fake or something because I really had planned to start worshipping there some days that I don't wanna go to our assembly.
You see we don't have to joke with the things of God or spiritual matters.
It shouldn't be faked or lied about just to make the crowd baffle.
Everything concerning the spirit should be done genuinely with honesty.
For we are not deceiving God or anyone but ourselves if we try to fake spirituality.

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