I'll Be Back With A Better Result
Of recent, I mentioned losing passion for the things I used to do at ease because of some reasons.
I spoke of not doing a particular thing for a certain period and after the break, you realize that you are struggling to find your footing again and in most cases, you have to start afresh to be able to keep up the space and cover up the lapses. I mentioned the challenge I was facing from my angle and one of which was my sketch works.
For about four months, I haven't sketched or drawn anything and the reason is that I was caught up with a lot of school work that I had no time left for sketching and drawing.
I wasn't happy dumping or abandoning my passion for a while but I just couldn't help either.
It took me a while after the week's break to get off my comfort zone and decide to try sketching again and like I imagined it, it turned out really terrible I must say, perhaps it wouldn't have been so if I had started and completed the sketch in a day but for the fact that I began the sketch and only for me to keep it till the next day hoping to finish it up. That was where the whole problem began. Yes, I was already feeling too tired to finish up the drawing that day so I decided to rest and complete it the next day.
The next day was a different story, I realized I couldn't pick up from where I stopped the sketch. I didn't know what I was missing or mixing up, I even forgot the uses and functions of some of the brushes and tools, still, I wanted to try and complete the sketch somehow and guess what? Because of that, it became a total disaster that I couldn't even amend again. Sure! It was frustrating but like I already mentioned earlier that I expected it after all.
I mean I didn't expect to do better or still the same after not doing anything related for good four months.
Whatever the result was, I wasn't that surprised or disappointed. Anywhere, I decided to share my frustration with you guys😑 yes the sketch became this bad that I gave up completing it. Yes, I stopped the sketching halfway and it's been settling in my sketchbook for a while now. I am not sure I will ever complete it again, if I wish to make this work, I will have to start all over again, from scratch till the finish line to avoid messing it up again.
All the same, I wanna remind myself that I am not backing down, no! Not with this, it has been my passion for as long as I can remember so I wouldn't give up just like that. I know I will be back with a bang, yes a better result but for now, pardon me for saving this here for future reference 😁
Still your baby girl ;)
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20 November 2021 @ Saturday