Did I tell you guys that I gave up on my art? Though I can't really say I gave up literally, I just had to take a break off art and drawing and try to get myself hook up with something else.
It's been a hell of a month and a week for me, the stress became more real this time, and I couldn't just say I've had a day I slept properly without overthinking or probably trying to figure out some stuff in my mind.

A Few days back, a friend of mine posted something about dancing, yeah I am sure I've mentioned a couple of times that I am a dancer and yes it's one of the things I love doing passionately aside from drawing. This friend I mentioned needed a few people for a dance piece she wanted to recreate. I told her I was in and we set a day to gather and practice.
We had our first rehearsal on Sunday evening, it was a nice first time if you ask me. I met two new guys who are also dancers, with proper but brief introductions of ourselves. From the mere sight, you could tell these guys are good, I was already feeling intimated until my friend started hyping me about being good to these guys that she has seen my dance videos a couple of times. I shut my friend up and told her not to disgrace me in public that I wasn't even that good enough, coupled with the fact that I assumed these guys were topnotch even when I didn't see them dance just yet, so I couldn't risk shaming myself by accepting all the hypes from my friend.

We got to the venue for the practice, and we started by stretching our bodies and muscles and then we move ahead to practice a few dance steps. It was already getting dark since we wasted a lot of time trying to locate everyone and then finding a suitable place for us to practice, another problem we had which delayed us was the music box, the one we had with us the battery was down and so we needed a place we could charge and use in the process. However, since we couldn't find any, we resorted to using our mobile phones to play the music and dance to it. It wasn't loud enough though and didn't give us the vibes compared to what the music box would have done but we had to manage it either way.

The first day of practice went well, but coming to the second day, these guys messed up but on the grounds that they didn't have my contact to have reached out to me. They literally changed the location for the practice and made me waste my time waiting on the highway for them for more than an hour. I was calm at first but when it was getting too much I became furious and pretty upset. They could see it on my face and I wasn't even smiling with any of them, that's the extent to which I was angry. They apologized though and one teased me about looking more beautiful when I am angry mtcheww.

Iron Sharpens Iron

When one of the jovial and social guys named ITop noticed I wasn't even giving a smiling face and probably understood the level of my anger, he tried to spark up the conversation to calm me a bit. He started with chats about school and work, it was boring in a way that the second guy named ziggy had to cut in though he was walking in front, he told Itop to quit the boring school talk, and the guy said okay and switched topics.

Apart from dancing, working, etc, what else do you do?

Itop asked and I quickly responded;

Drawing, Writing

Suddenly as if I remembered I had stopped drawing for a while, I rephrased what I said and said no! Just writing for now. I haven't sketched anything in a long while. He was surprised and was like; seriously? You do draw? I said yes why so surprised?.
He had to ask again and be sure that I didn't just say it or that it wasn't a mistake but that I meant what I said.
And he was like, I am sure you already guessed my next question? can I see your artwork? I smiled and said I thought as much.
But before I showed him, I made him understand that I only do digital art, and he shouted that he does the same, he asked me which software I use for my digital art, I mentioned, and there came another shout of excitement 😂 his reactions though got me laughing.
He said he rarely meets digital artists around and he is very right. It was also my first time meeting one physically. We've seen a lot of pencil/charcoal artists, pen/ink artists, etc. But we rarely meet those who ventured into digital art and to a few pencil and pen artists we've met, they made digital art seem like a waste of time so we both were amazed.

After showing him some of my works, he complimented them and told me I was good. Until I saw his, I had to take a bow because the guy is too good. I kept shouting Wow! Wow! Wow! like an ambulance 😂😅 but I was seriously amazed.
We ended up enjoying the conversation and sharing our challenges, observations, and process. He actually showed me a few tricks, something I didn't know about the software we both use. I am yet to implement them since I haven't sketched anything yet and I am still hoping to do that soon but to say the truth, I can't really tell how soon as I am pretty busy with something else at the moment.

I guess meeting these people was for a purpose yet to be properly defined. But what I am sure of now is that we can work hand in hand to push one another, encourage and motivate. After all like they say Iron sharpens Iron. Itop kept assuring me and telling me to go back to my drawing and not abandoned it. He is optimistic about his art journey and it's so nice to meet someone who shares the same vision, and goals as you and understands just how you feel, and is passionate about the same thing you are doing too.
Perhaps because of him, I might look into my art again and take it seriously this time and not just as a form of hobby, I have seen the push I've always needed and I have net the Iron I needed to sharpen me up😉

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               16 June 2022
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