Taste Of Depression
The room was lighted up, from the rays of sun that reflected directly through the glass window.
There were no traces of a hand knife, no broken glasses, or hanging rope.
I didn't have my pillow soaked with tears or maybe not yet, just maybe I couldn't even if I wanted to.
I almost kicked my feet and say the words; I AM DONE!
Yes, I almost said I am done being frustrated, beating myself up about something I wasn't finding joy doing but for the sake of the knowledge.
I almost said oh well, you can't always have it all maybe you should try some other time.
I almost said, I QUIT, cause I simply cannot take this anymore.
I was confused, frustrated, and angry. Angry about everything including the disheartening nature of the power supply in my country.
Today I has taught me a lot, I now have a better understanding of what depression feels like or what those who are depressed usually pass through though in a very different way, but I could tell I was depressed in a way.
Nothing went right or my way except for a few things I did half-heartedly and not really because I had trust in the result or what will become of them anymore. I had already given up in the things I was doing in my mind to day the least. And there was absolutely nothing I could do to change that present situation and so I was depressed and sad.
Depression comes when we least expected it from the slightest things we beat ourselves about.
I wouldn't keep nagging about how hard my last few days I've been, no I won't stop sharing how frustrating the journey has been but one thing is for sure, I hope to finish strong no matter what challenges may come my way.
Though these challenges and troubles come to shake me off, but as long as I have my mind on it, I believe to come out strong and like a friend reminded me that nothing good comes easy. There isn't anything under the face of the earth that comes easy
Challenges will always come, to shake you, make you lose your focus, and even drive you insane, to the point of wanting to give up, but if you stand firm and reassure yourself, you can always come out strong.
And this is my proclamation, that though it Is hard right now, though I am frustrated and always beating myself for not getting a particular thing done well, I pray that at the end of it all, I will come out strong and better and I will be grateful for all the processes even the depressing and frustrating moments.
I am Waky, multi-talented, and an optimist. I am zealous about life and all it has to either offer me or throw at me. I believe my existence is by grace so I am a product of grace, perfectly portraying my birth name "Abundant Grace". I am the last of my kind because I am unique and special in a dynamic way. HIVE has become my social HOME and SPACE.
To my faithful readers and wonderful sponsors, my heart goes out to you guys. Thank you for making my journey here a fun-filled and exciting one. Thanks for trusting and supporting my work too. I pray that God blesses you all real good :)
17 June 2022
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Hey @zellypearl , i know how it feels and what you're going through isn't easy just stay strong and take it ease, believe in yourself and you'll shine.
Sometimes all we need is someone to stand in our side. I've spent the darkest and worst time of my life being alone and depressed, felt like a trash but always thought about positive and good day's are near.
Faced through all those challenges and it made me strong and happens for a reason. Just keep trying believing in yourself and Good day's will come.
More power to you lady!
I understand your point.
Thank you, I believe in the good days.
And I am hoping on that.
Welcome, I'm also hoping for that!
Just few minutes before reading this, I felt like there is no way, I felt like everything is tiring, even coming on hive today was quite hard for me..
But as I read this, you gave me hope, I don't know what made you write this post, but thanks, it was strengthening...
I am glad I am still able to strengthen another soul even in my present state. Glad it found you too.
We will be fine!
Thanks you...
We will definitely will