My Fears| 30 Days Blogging Challenge

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We all have fear, don’t we? Having a fear is normal. Even the bravest person on earth may have or at least experienced the feeling of being frighten.

Perhaps, we share common fears like death, dark, snakes, etc. I don’t deny. Those are the things we’re all naturally afraid of. Needless to explain why.

Sometimes we don’t want to talk about our fears or we even hide it because some people might use it to scare you. Since we’re living oceans apart, I will just share to you the less talked-about or uncommon things or situation that I greatly fear.

Fear of Germs or Contamination

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On my previous post, I mentioned that I’m a Germaphobic person wherein I get very anxious when being exposed to a perceived germ filled environment. I’m not like this before until I studied medical course particularly the subject Microbiology. You see, we studied the different microorganisms, what diseases they could cause, and how diseases are transmitted. In addition, we also discussed and practiced “sterile techniques”. I believe that these contributed to the development of my fear. So whenever I see dirty objects, surfaces, or I’m in a dingy place, I can’t keep my focus on anything else. Even more nowadays that we are facing a pandemic caused by a virus, an invisible enemy. My anxiety is at peak especially when I was still working at the hospital. I also hate it when other people don’t take precautions or doesn’t observed proper hygiene.

Fear of Being Underwater

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It sounds ironic when I said previously that I’m an Aquaphile or love everything related to water but hates when I’m into deep. There’s a story behind it. One time, somewhere in 2009, me and my friends in college were nearly graduating that time so we decided to celebrate in a resort. We had a night swimming. I was holding on to a floating device and having fun in the shallow area, when one of my friend suddenly pulled the device so I was dragged with it to the deeper part of the pool which is around 7ft. I knew that I’m in trouble so I got panicked, lose my grip, and sank. I still can recall the trauma when I was striving to swim like I’m climbing an invisible ladder but not making headway. Good thing, my friend’s boyfriend who is a good swimmer came with us. He dived immediately and saved me from nearly drowning. I was so scared and trembling. I got mad to my friend who have put me into that terrible situation and scolded him that he shouldn’t play games like that.

Since then, I’m afraid of being submerged into water that’s more than 4ft. I still go swimming though as long as I know that there’s a strong swimmer around.

Fear of Holes or Trypophobia

This one is recent. Cluster of small holes is fearsome for me too. It started when I was browsing the internet and saw a hair-raising image of a body part that looks like a skin disease. I thought it was real until I found out that they derived it from the features of a lotus seed pod. It’s a repulsive display which always makes me wrinkle my nose in disgust. That’s why I didn’t upload a photo of it here.

Fear of Dogs

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Don’t get me wrong. I do believe that they are the man’s best friend. Easy to tame dogs are cute and adorable to look at and I don’t hate them. As long as they’ll not come near me. Moreover, when I hear dogs starting to bark, my heart is racing and it chills me down to my spine. Every time I come into a new house, I always ask or see first if they have dogs around.

My fear started to develop when I was attacked by a dog in my childhood days. Even more when I learned about Rabies.

Fear of Hitting my Head Again

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Since I've had my concussion, I dread the thought of hitting my head again. I think I developed anxiety disorder after the incident and I feel like it’s is stealing my life for almost two years now. Since then, every time I hit my head even mildly or suffering from headache which became frequent, the fear comes back. I feel like I’m in a life-threatening situation. In fact, I’ve undergone CT-Scan for three times and even MRI just to have peace of mind.

While writing these down, I realized that as I state and understand my fears, it feels like I’m having the strength to deal with them. I’m hoping that eventually I will be able to surmount these aversions.

This blogging challenge is initiated by @tegoshei.



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Studying microbiology and pathology can really make us feel anxious, right? xD

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Yes, sometimes I’m thinking, what if I didn’t study medical course. Will I be like this?

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True... a lot of people become paranoid especially when we study all these diseases. hahah Welp, it's better safe than sorry. :) But limitations should be there... as you may know being too cautious can be harmful, too. :)

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