I Needed More Calories In My Diet But It Is Not That Easy As It Sounds

It is hard for me to eat frequently because I have a strict diet and I also have to look out for my fluid intake. If I would eat more then it is inevitable that I would drink. That is why I am just not really fond of eating so now it is more like eating for survival because of my appetite-loss.

I don't see foods as foods now but rather a source of bad things too that will make my body suffer the unintended consequences. It is because they also put in bad things that already defined my body as of today. I am talking about phosphorus in the foods that I eat.

Eating more for me means that more of the bad stuffs coming into my body. ISO I have to use a phosphate binder in that regard. But phosphate binders are expensive and I could only afford much or I would make every meal expensive because I would have to take more phosphate binders.

It is the reason that I do not eat much of processed foods because of the phosphates that they use as an additive to maintain a certain quality of the foods such as texture, moisture, and shelf life to name a few. So I am always preferring not to eat them but rather just get contented with what is available in the table.

That is the problem because my parents are just cooking the same meals over and over so I lose my appetite more because of that. I end up not eating the required calories but lately I was requesting some of the foods that I wanted to eat so in that way I am able to eat more. I also am trying to eat with my hands so it would add enjoyment to having my meals.

I just hope that for some kind of miracle to make the inside of my mouth to revert back a little more so that I would not be having trouble in eating upright. I just am tired of eating while lying down on my bed, again it makes me lose appetite because I am not enjoying it.

But I am trying to eat upright lately because I missed doing it but it is difficult because of my mouth, current body pains, and swallowing because of my neck that has been pulled down because of my backbone collapse.

Well it is so dreaded of a condition because of too much complications that I have to consider and manage but I am just trying to make my life easier and praying for it to get easier for me in the future. May God Help me.