Ah...I think these days I tend to write more about life unlike before. I guess I am going through a phase where I am either thinking too much or trying to figure things out...

Pulling oneself out of a dark or endless spot can seem impossible sometimes. As much as sitting down doing nothing may seem like you are chilling and having a good day...it get to a point that it doesn't feel like it anymore. At that moment you feel unresourceful, not useful and stagnant. Not because you want it but because that is just where you see yourself at the moment.

As much as I would want to motivate myself by saying it is not my fault...it is to some extent. Maybe for those times I slept more than I should have, or those times I was lazing around and procrastinating what should have been done at that moment....or maybe for an advice I ignored from someone which would have worked for me. So somewhere somehow the fault lies with me.

However beating myself over what is long gone makes no sense no matter how much I wish I could turn back the hands of time. I may even most likely make the same mistakes, well, except of course my future self appears to tell me what not to do.

I just want to do something for myself...
I just want to be independent...
I just want to eat subway sandwich and have a smoothie to go with...
I just want to be in love with a good guy...
I just want to live my life without nothing to worry about, "if that's even possible"...

But hey! We have all had our share of bad days and most importantly good days too. We can't control what life throws at us but we can choose what we hold onto.

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Stay Safe And Remain Positive. 💕💕