Reminisce Time

Hi, I am Arveno from Surabaya city. In this content i want to share about time when we need to remember that we once had a daughter. Actually she need to be terminated during pregnancy. She had some condition that will make under 5% chance to survive after born. And We decided to terminate her and we dont want to see her born with cripple and waiting until death comes. That will make our heart broke deeper than terminating her. Maybe tomorrow i will make a content about what happened to my daughter. Its been almost 2 years since i called the terminate program. And it still hurt my heart so bad. Thats why we decided this week going to pray to her and visiting her.

So, my Daugther body was cremated and carried away in ocean near my house. Why we choose to be carried away in that place, that because we are decided to stay in this area since we want to buy house near here. And also we are comfortable in this area too. Thats why we still want to be close with her. And we are kinda easy when missing her and want to pray. And this place is called Sanggar Agung Kenjeran. The place for Buddishm Pray and also place for everyone pray if their family or the loved one carried away in this sea like us. But, not only that, this place right now also be as tourism spot too. Many people want to see this place and enjoying the beach wind breeze and take the picture of this Dragon Gate.

As you can see that day the sea is recede. The water level is very low. I can see the bottom of this edge of sea. This is sign not good if the storm coming into my city, bet it will be flood in no time. Fortunately at that day the rain comes just a moment thats why my city is not flooded.

Then it is time for scatter flowers ceremony, that is like our belief to the spirit that we loved that we are still missing them and want to close with them. While we are scattering flowers usually we are said what we want to talk to the spirit inside our heart. And yeah since my son starting to understand about this ceremony, we are teaching him to continue our habbit about spirit.

If you guys notice in this sea, there are so many flowers floating right?
Yep that is not just us, many people come here and pilgrimage here and pray in here too.
After my wife spend half plastic of flower than it is my time to send the prayer.

Then we are teaching our son with sending prayer. Since we are Chatholic so we are pray using chatolic ways.
Actually we are usually going here around once each 2 or 3 months, but sometimes when my beloved daughter came into my dream or my wife dream, usually one of us will asking to go this place to sending the prayer. That sign when my daughter missing one of us. And this time, my beloved daughter came into my wife dream. She is growing beautifully and still stay in our heart. And since it is just dream of course the story itself kinda weird. I dont understand the full story of my wife dream but what i know is that my daughter growing to be little kid that really beautiful and smart girl.