But What If I’m Tired of Trying?

"Don't give up" is a statement most people use every now and then while encouraging others, but then, sometimes, it's not so easy to do.

I don't know if you have been in cycles of situations where things kept turning around negatively. Just when you hope the situation is being arrested, it will unfold to something strange, as if the world is waiting for you to try your own so they can push you to fall out of the way.

The past three weeks have been hectic for me. I have faced a series of challenges in my business, the type that got the professional we hired questioning his expertise over the years. The colors of the challenges look so strange: money keeps flowing out, but yet, no result. It's heartbreaking, and that is one weakness I have about doing business.

I used to run away from business challenges; in fact, I hated to see loss and would overthink myself before finishing sales. This has been a weak side of me over the years, and while I prefer office jobs, But then, at this stage of my life, my husband wanted me to be around and nurture our kids, and so I chose a business that could give me a chance. I feel like running away from this current challenge, but sincerely, it's overwhelming.

I have nursed the idea of giving up countless times. I feel like why am I being frustrated this way at my age? Why not do away with this business and save myself unnecessary headaches? But then a few people I confided in kept saying to me, "Don't give up! I wish they could see my heart and how exhausted my heart is. It's fine. It's easy to tell people not to give up, but it's not easy to implement, especially doing things differently without evidence.

I had to keep exploring until I found something new to try because if business were holding on, family responsibilities are still active. But then it's sad to see that a similar challenge in my business is already happening in a new skill/job I found. This evening upon receiving the mail, I felt shattered and sad. Good enough. I decided to express myself through writing to see if I can breathe.

Now, will you also advise that I shouldn't give up regardless?

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