Life
I wake up today and wanted to unburden myself from some thoughts. The title is short as life itself.
Why do we live?
What is the meaning of being alive? What is the difference between a rock in a forest and us. Why I am frustrated and the rock feels nothing and staying bottom of the forest forever. Are you frustrated like me? Are you wondering why do we live? What is the meaning of all this? Life is full of pain, misery, failure, loss, fear, distress and tears. Why should we keep on going? When we go through difficult times, our mind might thing the life is not worth living anymore. Why do our minds plays trick on us? Why our own body and soul wants to destroy itself to get free from the agony of the life itself. What is waiting us beyond life? Is the main purpose being happy? making other people happy? creating happiness for everybody? How come everybody aprox. have the same amount of years in their life and one thinks life is far more precious to lose and the other thinks its not worth to have. Why one have accomplished so many things and others can not wake up from their bed.
My mind is full of questions. Question I did not know even existed. I can not express the mess in my mind into this digital and meaningless page. Is it wrong to seek for meaning to everything? What is the meaning of meaning? What is the purpose?
The purpose
Life on earth is short compared to the cosmic time. A life of a man isn't even blink of an eye compared to universe. There are places we won't know even it existed. Their light will never reach us ever again due to expanding of the universe. We are trapped in a bubble of visible universe which is a tiny portion of the existence. Imagine all we know in observable universe is a tiny patch of reality. Where do we stand that cloud of mess? Not even a dot. Not even a tiny tiny tiny thing. İts smaller than that.
We are living in the Milky way galaxy. Its a big flat disk of stars and planets measuring up to 120000 light years across. LİGHT YEARS. This is not something we experience as a year. Its the light that traveler 1 year. Its huge, its massive. Yet its soooo tiny comparing the reality. What are we to think we are so important in this universe. What is this arrogance? Why do we think that we are important to have a purpose in life. We dont know what life is. We dont know how much we dont know.
A tiny rock following a tiny star in the middle of the milky way galaxy that nobody knows about, nobody cares about. Yet here on Earth, we are 7 billion homo sapiens, we have wars, pandemic, hate, murder, love. We are killing each other, hating each other. For what? to be happy? to get more powerful? to feed our enormous ego? The hunger for power leads to where?
We do not have any purpose. We accidentally come to life and in the perspective of the universe, our life is a nanoseconds. We are nothing, comes from nothing, goes to nothing. All our feelings, life, accomplishments, emotions, failures, friends, family, our first pet, first car, graduation, marriage, a Friday night with friends comes to a nanoseconds. Why do we keep telling ourselves that we are so much important that an invisible guy in the sky who created all have a purpose for us. We are so important that a all powerful cosmic being created us and gives us text books to follow. Its funny.
Truth and Happiness
What should we seek in our life. A purpose? no. Meaning? no. The truth will be neutral whether you accept it or not, whether you like it or not. whether you believe it or not. Truth doesnt care what you think, what you feel, what you do and don't, Truth doesnt care who you are, a woman, a man, an others things you would like to call yourself. Whether you are tall or short, ugly or beautiful. Alive or dead. Truth is always be there for you to acknowledge it, know it's existence. After you realize the truth nothing will be the same anymore. Truth will change your life. What is the truth. Well if you want to seek for something in your life, let it be the truth. Its unique to everybody. Truth is we are connected. The first man who build a fence and called this is my land do not cross started all of this "this is me" " this is you" game.
The first man wasn't a homo sapiens who wanted to protect its farm land from strangers. It was an early life form who needed energy. the "me" and "not me" game begins there. One eats another for energy to live. once cell has walls to sepeate "it" from "others". This seperation is an illusion we tell ourselves as the truth. There is no seperation we are one. Same molecules and atoms come together to form a rock, and you. There is no difference and at the same time there is difference. Without "others" we can not exist. We are a part of one big thing.
To find Truth and happiness is a rare thing. Often Truth brings sadness and sorrow to the ears who hears the truth. Truths are harsh they say. The thing is we can not control what the truth is all we can control is our reaction to what we see , hear, touch , smell and feel. Happiness is free. Truth is free.
Our expectation from life is sooo high that we think happiness can not be achieves and we are doomed to a misserable life. Wake up, brush your teeth, go to work, work, come back, have a cup of coffee, sleep and repeat. Happiness is like the air you breath. Its always there, you have to notice it, you have to appreciate it. You have to realize what it is doing to you. Without breathing you'll die in minutes. Its there to feel. Feel it and embrace it. Live with it. Realize we are connected.
Life is hard
Life will never be easy. Life will always be hard. Hard is the default setting in life. You have to chose your hard. Being in a relationship is hard. Not being in a relationship and being alone is hard. You have to chose your own hard. Being fat is hard, being fit is hard. Success is hard, failure is hard you have to chose YOUR hard. Which hard you would like to enjoy the most? Which hard you like the most? Which hard is more suitable for your own set of skills. Every good thing in life is either hard or unhealthy - looking at you tasty food - Once you understand the logic behind this, you'll realize no matter what life will get you eventually , only thing you have to do is to chose. Think yourself as a rock just broken out of a huge mighty mountain. Full of sharp corners. your journey as a rock begins at the top of the mountain which has a great view. Everything was fine. Your sharp corners are your character, moral, emotions, your hard edge opinions and your ambitions. Life does not like sharp edges. Once you go down the river you'll become round. River stones doesnt have edges. They are smooth, easy on the hand and soft. Either you change or life will change you by smashing you to other rocks until you reach the ocean.
The ocean is dark and deep. We need a boat. Build yourself for the hardship ahead. Be a better person not from your friends or other but from yourself a day before. Race with your past self. Help others. As much as you give, as much happiness you'll realize that exist.