ENTHUSIASM (I just want to be happy)

I just want to be happy. This was what I posted on my Facebook post yesterday. It is not just a prayer but a feeling that I have been experiencing since I join this chain(4days ago). Now, I understand what it means to be depressed. Don't get me wrong, I am not depressed but I am on my way there which is worse than being in that state of depression,all thanks to @marvinix he change my thinking by introducing me to this chain,am inspired with some post am seeing here maybe is because I love to read alot. The state where you feel like you are not enough and all your plans aren't working according to how you want it. That space you are in where you feel you don't deserve to live or you don't deserve to be friends with a certain people or where you begin to reminsce on your failure,
disappointments and rejections. You feel as if you are grieving yourself😥.
Every problem or obstacle you are facing will surely be a product to your testimonies..if you don't face them how do you want to have a story to tell

Does this even make sense? Mide told me whole replying to my Facebook post that it happens sometimes to the best where they begin to question themselves. I ask him,"Am I the best? With my flaws and imperfections??". This period I feel so lowly, I understand what people who fell into depression went through. Now, I don't blame them but I only feel sad because they didn't know the way out. Now, all I feel is the guilt that society is not doing well enough for us young people and is not helping matters. Those people who committed suicide were as helpless as I am, they didn't feel love even if they had it all around them.
I was part of the population who blamed them for committing suicide because I couldn't understand what they were going through, now I know better.
However, what helps me and what has been helping me is the fact that I have Christ and He alone is my source of joy coupled with the positive people I have around me,one of them is @marvinix. If you have someone who isolates her/himself all the time, or isn't as extroverted as they were before be careful and try to give such person more love. If you are the one in that state, please turn to Christ and pour all of you to him.
Always remember this verse- 1 Pet. 5:7
"Casting all your care upon him, for he careth for you".
Am not a pastor ..but am very use to this verse😂

I wrote this because someone may need it. Share this too to help young people. Be a light of hope to them. Keep the fire burning!!!

Thanks for the time you dedicated to read this ...
AM A NEWBIE HERE