I am alive Challenge Day #40 // Feeling Blue

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I don’t know why I should feel this from time to time. Not only because of the epidemic or the increase in covid-19 cases but I think it's all because I'm already tied to different types of obligations that sometimes I can't fulfill. I lack a lot of features that can make me skeptical. I always compared myself with other people I knew. I know that they do their best to provide for their family. At the moment, I can’t make and give my family their needs and wants. I feel like an empty pack. I feel worthless. I know this is wrong but I don't know how to get rid of this strange feeling of mine.

There are so many things I want to do but I can't do it because I can't do it and something has stopped me from doing it myself. I am the obstacle. I am the one who makes my dreams just a dream. I am the one who makes things right on time. It was very difficult for me to understand what I really wanted. Sometimes I end up dreaming of the past where I can do what I want with ease. I do not regret having family but sometimes I wish I could go somewhere else where I like especially when I am upset. I also want to have my own room so that I can have a secret so that I can cry without hesitation and feel bad when someone sees me crying.

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My little brother

Why should I feel this way all of a sudden? I mean I think I'm lucky to have a place to stay, food, and water because some don't always have it. I have children that anyone desires. I have in-laws I trust. I have supportive brothers and sisters. But I just don't have Money in my wallet right now, haha. Maybe that’s why I feel blue right now. You know what? I dream of having a small but sturdy house for my family but with no money, I will not be able to keep that dream. I am not happy about the fact that I can not give my family the best possible health.

I just leave it here, hoping that one day my dreams will come true, and when that happens I will be happy and share with you my happy journey.

This is my day #40 in @iamalivechalleng initiated by @flaxz



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Hello dear friend @icon-bassey good afternoon
I am very sorry for the situation you are going through, I know it is a delicate situation, but even so you should not lower your arms. Have faith, think positive and you will see how everything changes, have a lot of faith, faith moves mountains

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You have spoken well my friend..
Faith is paramount
Thanks for stopping by

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You've said it, so shall it be if you hope on God and work towards achieving them.
Great to have you here friend.
Enjoy the rest of your day.



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Sorry to here about your situation
Try and stay positive bro
Tough times never last.
@icon-bassey

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Awwn
I really love your reply..
You have spoken well brother

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