SORRY, I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK

This will be the longest letter I have ever written in my life. Before reading it, make sure you have plenty of time to listen to every word that might never come out of my lips.

If you are willing to read it, there is nothing else I can say besides "thank you".

Dear You,

Hi, how have you been for a long time?
I hope you are fine. I know in your eyes that this is nonsense talk just to start greeting you, but you have to know how much effort I put on my ego to write it.

I'm sure you were quite surprised to get a letter from me that was part of your past. Or maybe I'm already on the list of names that you don't want to see anymore.

But I really hope that you will be willing to take your time even if just reading it without any response.

First I want you to know that none of our past has ever been regretted. I keep all the trips we go through neatly in a memory box. I must admit I don't have the great ability to forget everything about you.

No matter how hard I try, you're still a part of my life's journey. I can't cover it.

With you I've felt loved and loved. You were once where I leaned. Become a friend to enjoy the best food in all directions that we explore. We do many things together.

Our journey is not a short trip. Time brings us inside to get to know each other deeper.

Many decisions we make together. Many quarrels that we create. Many stories we have already explained. I appreciate all of that being part of the story of my life despite its past location.

I respect you as someone who has had a role in my life story.

I really don't regret it even once, I never regret what happened between us.

My departure is not a mistake but a decision. I'm packing to leave you and all your bad stories. I don't want to bring it because I just want to keep the best story of our trip.

I don't hate you, it's just that I can't get back to you. You have made mistakes that cannot be tolerated by my ego, so this is the best decision for us.

I'm not taking you back in the past, I just want to say sorry.

With this letter, I submit an apology to you.

Sorry for leaving without warning and forgive me for not being able to return to you.

Best Regards

Your past

I don't know if you will read this letter, but at least I have tried to defeat my ego to apologize.

It's not easy to open all the memories stored neatly and let it scatter in the memory. I'm not nostalgic, but I've made it through the phase to forgive myself. Until I make the decision to forgive you and apologize for all my selfishness.

I don't want to be happy alone, letting go of all this burden. I want you to be happy and release your hatred towards me. I want to write it over in our story, without involving our anger and our egos.

I hope you can understand and forgive me through this letter. ***