Fast Forward Year 2004

Sometimes I wonder if my everyday wish or prayer would come to pass, I can remember very clearly the countless number of times I've prayed and written about this but it's yet to come to pass. Well, here is another chance to vent my heart out, thanks to the #weekend-engagement topic.

It didn't take me more than five minutes to decide the topic to choose and that is because it says a lot about me making a wish I have always wanted to come true. Well, this isn't a guarantee that it will be granted but I'll write it out regardless.

Option 4 topic:

If you could fast forward over a particular year of your life so you didn't have to live it which would it be, and why?

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That would be year 2004 in a happy home with my family!!! What happened that year, you asked?

Who would want a happy home to break? Who would be happy to watch a part of the whole family leave? No one I guess and that includes myself.

We were happy years ago (2004 to be precised) or so I thought as the kid I was then. I was only six but I knew I didn't wanted anymore than the happy home I had then. My family would do almost everything together especially when dad wasn't at work. He was mostly at work so it was just my siblings and I with mum.

But on my birth month July 2004, what I would have love to fast forward so I don't get to live it, happened...

Mum left our family and went to a far away place.

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My siblings and I were at school when she left so we don't get to watch her leave, maybe that would have killed my heart I guess. We came back from school with so much joy to go meet our mum at home who would have prepared our lunch and welcomed us with hugs.

That day was totally different from the time we got back from school, dad was home! What? He was never at home when we got back from school... He was supposed to be at work and mum would have been the one at home.

Then as the smart child I was, I noticed the gloom on his face, the small talks among our neighbours and the pity face my aunt gave my siblings and I. I felt really bad and knew that something had happened to mum and all I could do then was cry endlessly to have my mum back.

My siblings didn't know what was going on but they joined in crying with me and dad couldn't help but go out to look for mum hoping that he would find her. Mum didn't come back that year and even the next year's till now... We had to live life like she wasn't going to come back anymore.

If I could fast forward that year!!!

Mum would still be with us now, dad wouldn't have felt what it's like to bring up three kids on his own, my siblings and I wouldn't have felt what it was like not to grow up with a mum.

If that year was fast forwarded, we would still have a happy home now with a more beautifully grown kids having a complete parents who love and cherish them. Things would have been definitely different, no doubt about that.

I guess I'll only need to pray for things to fall in place from now on since I can't fast forward or live back the years.

Thanks for reading!!!