HOW TO ROB A STRONG WOMAN'S HEART (8)
The previous episode is here
Weeks has passed since Aish left me. I feel like, this time I can't help it if I couldn't see her any longer. As the night passes sitting in a place where used to be together makes me feel lonelier.
There were times that my tears fell when I think about her. I’m having mix emotions of fear and sadness that she won’t come back to me this time. My heart feels heavier as I see her smile that is so vivid in my memories.
I feel like I'm drowning in the deepest part of the ocean because of my longing to see her. "I don't want this feeling." The night ends with so much sorrow and as I woke up, I found my pillow is soaking wet because of my tears from last night.
I was so hesitant to tell my mother of my plans to look for Aish, I couldn’t barely talk that I ended up whispering my voice. Fortunately, when I mentioned her name, she just smiled and said, "You sacrificed too much for us, this time follow what your hearts tells you to do." I suddenly became emotional that I almost cried. It was because of happiness that I feel realizing that they're very supportive all this time. "Thank you, mother."
I left our house with full of excitement to see Aish. I didn't know their home address so I'm planning to go to their business location instead. When I arrive at the building, I decided to wait at the lobby than asking the receptionist to call her because I'm wary that she is busy at the moment, so maybe it will be best if Aish is the one to see me first once she is done for the day.
Of course, I belittle myself seeing the corporate people in the City. They look very professional. It's not that I'm an old-fashioned guy, it's just that I have a different lifestyle where I came from.
I realized I was waiting for her for almost a day already and no Aish has step out in the elevator. I patiently wait there; my vibe is telling me that this time it will be different.
I decided to sit in the bench outside at their front building. I was thinking that maybe after 5 in the afternoon, she will be out and that will be the end of her work for the day.
When the clock turns five in the afternoon, I finally see her, heading towards my direction. I got so excited that I can't contain my emotion, I missed her so much that I want to hug her tightly. I run towards her because I can't help it anymore and I want to be with her already.
When nearing towards her, I can already see her face clearly. My heart sank and I stop running towards her because something is odd when she looks at me. This is not what I expected and I feel so fool.
She does seem mad at me because her face is gloomy. "Is she not happy to see me? "Hey Aish…" I greeted her with a smile but with a muttered voice. "Why are you here?" She said it with a loud tone in her voice. What I can sense from her is that she looks embarrassed seeing me. I gave her the benefit of doubt because my heart is telling me that there’s something wrong happened to her, that’s why she acted like that. "I don’t want to see you here so please leave! She shouted at me.
I couldn’t help it. My world falls apart and my tears starts to fall when she said that. I reckon of our sweet memories together and it breaks my heart. I had this thought that she will completely be gone from me.
I wipe my tears and managed it to stop. "This isn't true!" Words that I forced myself to believe. I hold her face and said. "What's wrong Aish, aren't you miss me? Because I miss you that much that makes me go crazy every single day without you. Tell me why are you like that to me?"
"This isn't about you, it's about me that don't want to see you here." She said those words to me without looking straight into my eyes.
She looks trembled when she said that and wanting to leave so soon. I tried to keep her by holding her hand, I can't almost breathe because of the pain I'm feeling inside.
I am now lost for words and all I want is to beg her not to do this to me. Little did I realized that I was already crying so hard and she slap my hand away so I can let go of her hand. I hug her when she turns away from me. "Please Aish, I can't take it. Please I'm begging you, don't do this." I can hear her cry and I can feel she is trying her best not to show any emotion to me. She was shaking when I hug her.
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She removes my hands from hugging her and turns to me with a smile on her face and she starts to walk out of my way. I still follow her then a car suddenly stops in front of us. I saw Blake and his father inside the car.
She gets on the car. I quickly hold the car door to stop it from, then a deep man’s voice said "Aish, who is that?" It was his dad and she suddenly kick me to let go of the door. I barely feel the pain from her strong kick, what hurts me most is the realization that she is gone. I was so hopeless. I took the bus home and my heart aches so bad.
I can’t just believe everything that had happened, after all what we’ve been through. There are no words to explain the situation so I can get a clearer picture. My heart won’t admit that the love she showed me were all lies.
I arrived home late, my mother and brother are already sleep. It's perfect since I don't want them to see me like this. I decided to go to the beer garden to get some drink and ease a bit pain. Since today is not my gig.
The bartender hand me a beer to drink and I sip the bottle up quickly. I asked my boss if I can sing because deep inside me, I want to express the pain that I’m feeling’ right now. He nods at me to give me a go signal. "Hello everyone, I want you all to here this song, this is my original piece and I was hiding it for long because I thought I have a wonderful life since that woman came into my life. But I was wrong, she just threw me out and kick me like a garbage." Damn, the world is really unfair for us poor people. Love alone is not enough to let your loved one loves you back. Now give me a round of applause." I start singing with so much emotions, I feel every lyric I wrote while crying. I remember all the happy moments I have with Aish. The happiness we shared and the love that I thought it's real.
The way she smiled and the way she's mad at me still so vivid in my memories. I sob when singing. "Thank you." When I finish singing, I went back to my table. I keep on crying while drinking. I got so drunk and difficult to stand.
When I stand up, I almost fell on the floor but someone helps me to balance myself. There’s no clear picture of who the person was because I got so drunk, but I can tell that she is a lady. I can only see is that, this woman is smiling at me. I smile back and fall asleep.
"Ahhh", my head aches when I woke up. I look around and recognize that this is not my home. I really have no idea where I am. I went out of the room while holding my head. I want to know whose house is this and who brought me here. But there's no one I couldn't find when I roamed inside the house. I heard a soft music and it is my voice and my song from last night.
I tried my best to follow where the music is coming from. I'm surprised when I saw a woman wearing bikini and floating into the pool. She's solemnly listening to the music so I said. "Excuse me." She didn't hear me. I took a step closer to her even though I'm too cautious because she wears a two-piece swim suit.
"Erm, excuse me..." She looks at me and said. "Oh, you're awake already. Come on, join me here. " She smiled at me as she waives her hand. I shook my head giving her the hint that I don’t want to swim (not that I really don’t want to but I was too anxious).
"By the way, thank you for bringing me here, but can I please have medicine for head ache." I smile and look in another direction. "Oh, wait here, I'll get one." She said as she rises from the pool. I can tell she is so sexy from the corner of my eyes. I glimpse towards here because I can't help it. She smirks as she walks.
I got the chance to listen to my song while she is not around. I was ashamed because she recorded everything, the drama, sobbing while singing. I covered my ears while looking like a stupid.
"Wait, someone pushed me in the pool." When I came out, I was gasping for breath and saw her laughing. Now I realized she’s the culprit. She's acting like we're close friends. She laughs so loud and I began to wonder how did I ever makes her feel so excited like that.
"What have you been doing Carl, why you're so weak?" She's now making fun of me. "How did this woman know my name?" It makes me wonder who this woman is. Why she knew me and she seems to enjoy it while teasing me. I have a bad feeling about this.
To be continued…
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I feel for the man who can't get over the rejection of this woman Aish, but boy, do I feel for Aish when he finds her and doesn't want to let her go. #LetGo. Letting go is the Big Life Lesson I've had to learn. I love the scene where he sings to a live audience of his heartbreak - and laugh at the idea that someone recorded it. And pushed him into a pool and is herself laughing and wearing a bikini... he has a bad feeling about this? I'll read on!
thanks, I have the next episode. I just edit it now so even a little it could be better to read.
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Is Aish worth it? I hope he can move on from Aish. Wait there’s someone new. Could it be????