Life continued... 6/22/21

I have been stressed out to say the least the past few days. July 1st is going to be hopefully a good day and I have the $1,450 I need. I am reallllly cutting it close though. Ugh. This crypto slaughter has not helped whatsoever either. Crazy.

I did just look up and discover a place that will hopefully buy my silver, so hopefully that works out, if that works out then I believe I will really be in the clear. Man that is some good news, I looked it up a few weeks ago and didn't remember seeing this particular spot. I've never sold silver before, hopefully it's easy and quick.

I promise I have had positive thoughts otherwise. I have plans. I have ideas, and goals.

Life has been nuts, all the while trying to be a good father. I am choosing to change jobs for a better pay rate. That upset some people at my job, I almost lost my new apartment.

Well now I am going to keep my apartment, which is tremendous news. I am going to take this new better paying gig at a steakhouse, and on top of that my current/soon to be former job said if I can get some hours in while I don't work at the steakhouse, I can. They said I can be a morning manager as a matter of fact!

Life has been up and down and everything in between. Summarizing it in written form makes me feel perhaps two percent better overall.

The best case scenario here is I get the money together that I need on July 1st, I can work both jobs (within reason and not kill myself) make good money, re-build crypto funds, grow as an adult in general, maybe get a car or better place, be a great father, and work on other bigger goals I have in mind. Improve writing, become hopefully financially independent hopefully through Hive, perhaps take up Jiu-Jitsu again. Podcast? Stream video games like Madden? If I could get paid to play Madden I mean DAMN.

Going to college has actually crossed my mind too....

Being a good father is a huge one too. I need to be there for my son, and perhaps striving forward like I am trying to do will help him be a better human being a better man.

It may appear I am not handling this pressure well, not that appearances matter but still. I genuinely don't care what I seem like, this is a fantastic venting session.

I really am handling this stuff well I believe. I am just staying in the moment and just trying to make the best decisions that I can and letting the chips fall. I have a decent balance in my head. I don't know, but its not a bad I don't know, ya know?

I'm really kinda going with the flow. I have people that care about me too.

I thank God, I feel like I'm definitely being guided by him lately.

Anyway, I could really write all night, maybe I should be doing this a lot more often. No reason I shouldn't.

This rant was not very well organized, but yeah. It felt good to do this.

Hive on folks.