Music & Darkness

It was one of those days when we had no electricity at home the whole day and I was in the most unimaginable state of boredom. Fortunately for me, the day flew by without me even realising it. I guess that was because I was lazing around the whole day and surprisingly, I wasn't even tired.
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When I checked the time, it was late at night. The whole house was engulfed in complete darkness except for the places my flashlight illuminated. I started making my way to my room with this tremendous need to listen to music. I turned off the flashlight of my phone immediately I entered my room, and then found my way to my bed.

After settling in, I basked at how dark my room was but didn't let that disturb me. Getting comfy on my bed, I put my earphones on and played my music at maximum volume. The experience was surreal as I was completely numbed out. I couldn't hear anything or see anything. I was in a whole different world.

At first, I panicked due to the loss of my two most valuable senses but as I eased into the music, I felt tranquil, I felt peace. You know that moment you feel compelled to close your eyes and pay more attention to the music you are listening to, I wasn't really compelled because I was engulfed in absolute darkness with my eyes wide open.

As the music played on, I felt as if I was drowning deeper and deeper and deeper into this ocean of darkness and it felt so good. There could have been a serial killer right in front of me and I wouldn't have known. I felt butterflies in my stomach as I thought more about it. I felt so alive like I was standing at the edge of a cliff staring at the jaws of death but really wasn't.

Most of us demonize darkness but for once in my life, I embraced it. I felt myself drowning at the intensity of its calmness as I listened to Passenger's newest album - "Birds that flew and ship that sailed", soothing my soul to a state of tranquility which I haven't felt in a while.

Light can be so dull sometimes when you actually think of it, because it blinds you from seeing and feeling deeper things. It's so blank compared to the richness you get from darkness. Such intensity, such a peaceful presence, yet so commanding, so consuming, and so addicting.

During this revelation, my peace was completely demolished and absolutely obliterated when my oblivious sister entered my room and woke me up from my hypnosis as she started rambling about a problem her best friend was having like I gave a fuck. During her non-stop mumbling, I was pretending to listen to her, but in reality, I was consumed with anger at the intrusion she committed.

All I heard was the intense sound of disgust in my head as my sister went on and on. After telling her what she wanted to hear, I asked her to leave my room so I could go back to the state I was before she intruded. However, it didn't feel the same. There was a certain trace of contamination in the peace and tranquility I was trying to achieve.

That anger ruined it and it left me completely dissatisfied. But it was my mistake for thinking that such pleasures were made to last. Though darkness is Bright, it doesn't want to be seen that way. It wants to be felt with unwavering and unequivocal attention and focus. It's just ike staring at a black dot on a clear sheet of white paper.

To see the unseen, the obscure, we need to embrace darkness to shed some light into our souls. In the dark, there is discovery, there is possibility, and there is freedom. There is always absolution in the dark, once someone has illuminated it. To see what's within sometimes, you have to numb the senses. For some it's drugs or alcohol for me it's music and darkness.

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That's a great experience you went through. Once such is revealed to you, you can create a similar session in maybe similar settings. Nothing lasts forever indeed, but nothing has to be a one time only thing. The first step you took, may be discovered by chance that darkness is for you the way to dig deeper into your own mind and soul. Now you know this, you have the tools at hand to progress, to re-create.

Though darkness can do similar things as your experience, to me, similar (or same) works for me when listening to a specific kind of music, in settings that doesn't have to be dark... this can be in a club, or just outside in a park. Throughout the years I got to learn a few different ways, hence my toolbox is well equipped :)

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I think I prefer your settings to mine. I don't have to be scared of the dark. 😂

Like you rightly said, it shouldn't be a one time thing and of course, I have tried it too many times now and to be honest, I'm already so use to darkness.

Thanks so much for your feedback. It means a lot to me. I appreciate

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I'm always scared of the dark. I don't know why, but I feel like someone's staring at me or will touch me in someway. I'm constantly thinking of scary stuff as well. But even though it's dark, hearing my family's voices calm the scary feeling I have.

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I finally met someone that has something good to say about darkness.

Lovely descriptions.

I came through @dreemport

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I'm glad you enjoyed reading through. Thanks for your feedback

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You have described darkness in such an honorable and bright way that I almost fell in love with darkness. Haha. Darkness for what I know is scary but for you, you want to be left in it, enjoying it's "calmness" if not for your sister. I wish I can stay in the dark for 5 minutes to see if I could experience what you described here. 😅. Well done

Have you seen the new dreemport challenge? I hope you are going to participate

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Maybe you should try staying in darkness with your music playing on your earpiece to see if you will experience such calmness. 😂

I saw the challenge but I doubt if I will be able to participate

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Darkness may be bright but it should be a momentary feeling. I believe the blind would prefer light rather than the constant darkness they are engulfed in but like you said and you were right, darkness sometimes helps enhance our other senses and makes us appreciate some aspects of life better.

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Powerful feedback. Thanks for your comment

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