My Body Is As Painful As Heck Today

Having somebody to pull down my pants for me when I wanted to use the toilet is something that is far from my imagination but it happened yesterday after I decided to use the toilet but could not even do much of a thing because my body is just painful even though I had taken my NSAID pain reliever already.

That fear of being in so much pain than ever before is a reality already so I am just praying still that God would deliver me from it by taking my spirit and making me rest because it is just unimaginable for me to be in such a body state where I am just being carried around where I wanted to go.

It would still be better like that being carried around but the pain involvement is what makes my life so miserable and it is just getting worse as my short time on this world passes by. So it is just ridiculous that I only have a short time to live but I am experiencing it with so much pain and misery.

Being in dialysis is okay because if you just manage your diet right and control your fluid intake then you will still be fine in-between dialysis sessions. But it would get worse with bone complications and joint pain and stiffness.

Right now I should have a less pain in my body because I did had some pain reliever yesterday but still my body still aches and I do not know what to do anymore but to pray that my condition would improve. But of course it will not improve if I do not get some surgical intervention about my Parathyroid gland which will resolve this pain issues once and for all.

If only I could kill myself I would have done it already than to suffer this terrible life which is miserable and at the same time draining my money with a painful reality that I don't even get well with by taking it and still suffer.