Thoughts From A Mother
What? Did she just call me mom? Mom...mommy, mama, mother. Wow all of those are really me. I am actually someone’s mother. It is up to me to teach, nurture and protect her. But what if I fail? What if I forget to teach an important lesson? What if I don’t prepare her enough? What if, what if?
I can still remember when I was a child clinging to my mother. I have fond memories of specific moments like this. Wait, now I have someone that will be clinging to me and counting on me. What if I’m not good enough, what if I make the wrong decisions and she sees? Will she love me as much as I loved my mother? Will she look up to me as her role model? Will she be proud to be my daughter?
Oh gosh my heart feels like it’s being squeezed and my stomach is turning. The thought of this precious little being relying on me for everything, knowing her life and upbringing is in my hands makes me cringe. My legs are tingling and my fingers grow numb. Can I do this? Can I really be all that this child needs me to be for her?
This photo of my daughter and I was taken nine years ago. These were some of the thoughts I had when she was first born. It was terrifying thinking of all the responsibilities I had as a mother and daunting thinking of how I could fail. Even today I still have some of those thoughts. It is still surreal to me that I’m a mother of five and I still have fears of failing and not being good enough.
As I go on I am coming to realize that if I focus on being the best that I can and doing all that I can that’s in my control then I would have done my duty. Giving my kids the best of me and all of me is as good as it gets. Will I have failures? Yes. Will I disappoint them? Yes. Will they see my flaws? Yes. It’s called life and imperfection. Just as I learned from my mother’s mistakes and imperfections they too will learn from mine. I think it’s important our kids see our flaws and mistakes so they can learn how to bounce back from them and see what it’s like not to give up.
As long as I live and as long as I’m a mother I will always wonder, have questions and struggle with doubts about my parenting. But in the end as long as I can say I have given my all then I will be okay.
I sit here thinking about my blessings and how grateful I am to be a mother of five. Life is too short not to ponder on these things while you still can. I still think about the child we lost, the child we never got to meet and will one day see in heaven. Life has so many different turns and obstacles you would have never imagined to be apart of but we keep moving, striving and carrying on. I am just thankful I get to hear the words mommy everyday. I don’t want to take that for granted. Thank you Lord for blessing me abundantly.
Be blessed ~ ❤️
You are brave and strong Mama never forget that! One thing I learned so far is that we get this mother power out of nowhere when most needed! And you have it multiplied by 6! Don't push yourself too hard I'm sure you're doing fine. Your children will love you no matter what :) thanks for sharing 🍀
Thank you. I really appreciate your kind words. Our mother power definitely comes when we need it!
Beautifully written "from the heart" post @crosheille. Particularly meaningful as our family gathers together around our daughter who days ago lost her precious little boy, before he got to experience any life in this broken world of ours ...
Still, we look to Him who is the only true source of hope. Knowing someday all will be clear and our questions answered. Perfectly ...
For those whose lives He has entrusted to our care, by His enabling grace and power, we love them unconditionally. And humbly confess our shortcomings, as needed. You will someday then have your children returning home and letting you know what a blessing He helped you be to them. And any remaining doubts will be washed away ... 🙂
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Thank you @roleerob. I am so sorry to hear about your loss and I am praying that God covers your daughter and gives her comfort and peace during this time. I look forward to the day when our questions are answered.
Philippians 4:7 kjv
Thank you always for your words of wisdom and encouragement :)
May the good Lord comfort you all ~
Thank you so much @steemitmamas ~ 💖
Reading all the above, i can only say "hats off to you". I am taking care of two boys already feel like fainting sometimes, and you just inspired me to level up. I love your love and hearts and dedication. 😍
Awww thank you. ☺️😘
Take it one moment and one day at a time. 😉
You have to know that this touched my heart in ways I cannot even explain. I was so excited to become a mother until I was pregnant and then understood the ramifications of what that all meant.
It was scary, for sure.
Thank you always for the kind and gentle way you approach life, death and everything in between. You are an amazing woman, mom, and human being. Have a blessed Thanksgiving!
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Awwww I just love you to bunches! I love how we as women and mothers can connect and support one another. It truly was scary in the beginning.
Have a blessed day and I hope you enjoyed your Thanksgiving ~ ☺️😘
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Wow thank you so much!!
I think every parent feels these things, one more than the other.. The thing is, there is no all-in-one package to teach you how to parent. Every child is different, and I can say from my experience that my third child seriously can leave me in awe on how to handle something. I thought I had seen it all, well guess what, every new arrival seems to be smarter than the previous one lol.
I've learned that it's best to listen to your heart and gut feeling when it comes to parenthood, and I'm absolutely sure that you are a wonderful mom!
Thanks for sharing, and I hope all is well! <3
This is so very true . Every child is different and the experiences we have can’t be predicted. We learn what not to do and what to do more of with each new child. Lol I love how you put! 😄
Thank you so much for your warming words. It was so nice hearing from you ~ 💛
my kids are over 30 now and I still remember having similar thoughts :)
Wow! I see I’m definitely not alone.