parasitic lump on neck status:
1 year, 6 months, 3 days

Pain got so bad Sunday night I just quit in the middle of a conversation. Sunday was also the day that the steroids ran out. I was supposed to have received a step-down dosage (Medrol 5 day cycle) on Monday, but didn't get it until yesterday (which explains where I've been for last week).

I've said it before, and I'll say it again...

Yaaaaay VA...Yaaaay socialized medicine

Anyway, it wasn't all pain all week. I got the biopsy done on Tuesday, so I was doped out for Tuesday evening. I told the doc right before they put me under...

You can go ahead and slip with that needle 4 or 5 thousand times, I won't complain if the tumor falls out

I went nighty-night with the nurses giggling. It's not like I haven't passed out before with the sound of women giggling at me, ROFL!

I did find out a couple of things heretofore unknown to me:

• While the consensus is that the tumor ("mass" or whateverthefuck they call it) is not cancer, they aren't as confident as they were before. Not a biggie, I've had it before and I kicked its ass.
• The lump has two points of contact with the spinal cord, and is pushing into the brachial plexus, the nerve cluster under your collarbone
• Therefore they may use radiation therapy on it

Fuck that noise. Cut it out now. Since I always swing for the fences, I'm due for a homerun any time now. I don't feel like another 6 months of down time.

I have been out of commission for a year and 9 months now; before this bullshit I was down from a gym injury (to the same arm, hmmm), a re-injury going back to gym too early, an emergency gall bladder removal, a cough, and then finally the COVID scam. It's rather annoying that just before this went into pain, I had just started a home lifting program.

I have other shit to do

I'm on my second extension for one class, my first for another, IF I could just focus on that 1st course (I'm about 40% done...the same before this last batch of pain), I'd have no problem belting out the second.

THAT is one reason I've been posting my grad work, just to see enough of it to flow back into focus; it ain't happenin, though. Center-of-focus means the only thing I can be lucid about right now is this damn alien stowaway

and whining is easier than working

So damn skippy I want them to start hacking away, so as I can start rehabbing myself