Ramblings of the guy who waited till the deadline

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The deadline is approaching, I am running helter-skelter trying to meet up, the rush of adrenaline, the sudden creative high, the feeling of exhaustion but the sheer will to keep going.

I had so much time to do all these things, why didn't I do it earlier?

I say to myself as I keep going while fighting the sudden urge to give up. I kept pushing things back on the basis of "there is still enough time", but now that the deadline is approaching my brain has gone into a sort of panic mode and doing things a lot quicker than it was when there was still time. I stayed up basically all night jumping from one deadline to another. Had to take an hour-long (if you can call it that) nap so I wouldn't break down mid-way through. And I have so many engagements as well, this is going to be quite the day.

But I can't give up, I am not a quitter, I will persevere no matter what the day throws at me.

I keep saying to myself.

Phew one down, two to go. Let's get this shit.

All of a sudden I feel a new wave of energy, all the aching my brain was doing has stopped and now it just feels light. I am not going to think too much about it. I need to focus on the tasks at hand.

But then tragedy strikes. The devil sees I'm too strong and tries to break me down. I forgot to save my work and I accidentally cleared it permanently.

Oh my God, no no no, I have to do it twice?

My eyes feel too heavy and somewhat dry so no tears fall, but I'm sure as hell they'd have dropped down on another day. I try not to think too much about it, need to keep going, need to start again.

This time no silly mistakes.

I restart and this time it is a whole lot faster than the last time. But still, it takes a lot of time. Eventually, I finished it. Now I've eaten into the time I planned to use to claw back a little sleep.

I have one more, this one is a bit simpler and with a lot more creative license. But still, it requires a lot of brainpower which I can feel slowly deteriorating with every second I spend looking at my laptop screen.

All of a sudden a wave of gratefulness passes through me -maybe it is because I am almost done.

What would this day look like without my PC? It'll have been 100 times more hellish.

Finally, I finished the third task In the fastest ever time I have ever used to do It. I feel so accomplished. Maybe I can rest small. But then I glance at my clock and I realize it is almost time for the next engagement. I guess that rest will have to come later.

Hopefully, my brain can hold out just a little bit more and not shut down during the engagement. Afterwards, I will get that much-desired rest I need. I'll do better next time, I can't do this anymore (I have said this many times before :()

~THANKS FOR READING~

_{Based off real life events}

_{Cover image by Tim Gow from Unsplash}

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