☥ Liminal Dwellers ☥ - Facing the Unknown without flinching

Chaque chose a son temps

Every thing has its time

Chaque chose à son temps

Every thing at its time

This was a sentence my father used to say a lot when I was impatient, unsatisfied or challenging the cycles of time.

I never knew which one of both it was in the end as he always said it out loud, but ultimately it means both of it. Maybe that's also the point of the proverb.

It's pretty easy to trust God when one constantly has something to fall back on.

Trusting Gods provision while we work out last-resort plans JUST IN CASE it goes otherwise.

Trusting God knows best, while we still choose to go on looking at the world around us through the lens of our opinions and ideas.

Trusting Gods timing, while we occupy ourselves while we wait.

_"Driplets"

What would it imply to live a life entirely from that attitude? To trust Divine Timing, no matter what?

AEK shared with me his contemplation after his post.

And today I find myself extremely impatient, I even feel the tightness, squeezing between those days until we finally release the brakes and ride.

We have been in a liminal space since the day we got told to leave, a little less than a month ago. First it was a wave of fresh air: Change, at last.

Something felt so divinely orchestrated for it to lead up that way, and the entering into the liminal space felt like a cosmic embrace seducing us into it's mysterious core of the unknown. God is in charge, everything will run smoothly.

And, since we had narrowed down most of our possessions anyway, the packing was fairly quick: all we had was art supplies, tools, crystals and books.

But since loading all that in the car, and having nothing else to 'prepare' we live in a sort of waiting room/airport terminal, and we are waiting.

It's practically the first time I have nothing to do anymore before moving or traveling; it's always been last minute for me, so being like this with everything ready has created a huge void in which I feel exhausted and yet restless.

I realized I mostly am concerned with not forgetting anything that's why I make lists and write many things down in general, and yet it's neither trusting my own intelligence and quick memory, neither the Will of God in everything.

Also, I realized I wanted a lot of sleep before heading out and the long trip, around 1300km in a car by myself had some feeling that made me want to do it as fast as possible.

_{"XVI Tower"}

By reading up to now you may have noticed it's all about quick quick quick, too fast, too furious.

So yesterday I told myself I'll just pack all the rest into the car today and so it will be 'desert time' for the 3 days that are left, and I would force myself that way to just be still for once.

And today, the rain proved otherwise. I realized God didn't want me to do it, now, I thought. But as soon as it stopped and a little Sunray came through I wanted to pull through, and that thought was followed by rain, again. I was reminded by AEK that God said no, and I didn't need to persist with that cue, lest I would doom the entire day to rainfall just to prevent little me.

Good point and it made me still down.

And the rain stopped ever since I really contemplated what it would mean to live a life with that as a true integrated maxim.

Life is showing me live, what it would imply to trust God's timing above all. Those little things, each of them is an invitation to just go into the Void, back to God and come back with the faith all is divinely lining up.

_{"Enter the Realm of Peculiar Allegories"}

It's something I've felt a lot as a child. Perhaps one of the biggest confusions I experienced was the concern of my mother of so many things outside our home so much so that family and God only lived in a theory.

I realized she never could stay in that liminal space, always needing a distraction, a focus, something to do, to act, to get there, to finally arrive with a result.

And it made her completely absent although she may be physically there. She lived in another reality than the one in each moment.

So many of us are used to being afraid to have nothing to fall back on once we are in the unknown. Every moment is an unknown in truth. Anything can happen in a milisecond and anything can change in less than a heartbeat. It can't go more unknown than this.

And yet we have got into habits of bringing our attention to so many things that give us a footing during that unknown.

The magazine that you pickup from the waiting rooms table because you'd rather read even the shittirst stuff rather than having nothing to hold on during that liminal time.

_{"Portal out of Service"}

Many of us were taught to be afraid of the liminal space. Already with ourselves we are in it all the time. When in company it's even more unknown. And yet we still shy away from that; how many couples are together, but on their phones, the internet that gives us a sense of constancy that we take close to us on the cruise through the unknown.

While pondering about this, I realized it's pretty effortless to believe in Divine timing when you can busy yourself with something else until that timing is there. Or when you can let your mind get all acrobatic and forge all sorts of plans and scenarios for in case the timing doesn't hit, or hits "too early or too late", or just differently than 'expected'.

But when you have nowhere else to go, nothing else to do, there, it's another level. You are leaving everything behind in that waiting room. You will not go back to your old life, you will not wear the same old-you coat after that consultation. You already left it all, you came with nothing to hold on to. You have nothing "to forget".

_{"The Gaïalchemist"}

The trip will all go in divine timing; all of it.
Nothing will be a coincidence, nothing will be an accident.

Everything will seek me out for a reason,
everything will let me through by God's will.

The trip will not be a quick jump, it may take the time it needs
for us all to arrive safely where we're needed to be.

Every moment will be divine timing and every happening divine action.

Throughout that entire road trip, although neither in one space fully, nor another,
let that liminal space be fully open to all sorts of magic.
Let each moment be an eternity of its own,
the close contact with the Divine all throughout,
let me inhabit the void fully,

Immersed, aware, present and ride through it all feeling in my heart that it is all
by God's timing, wisdom and action.

That's that.

May you be stretched in your patience to face eternity fearlessly,

KPHI

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